Ritual Abuse?
Michael_vs_ritual_abuse
Registrant
Anyone having flashbacks of ritual abuse? Chants? Church, but not in churches? Waking up in a trance while performing sex acts?
I'm even remembering the countdown for me to fall asleep. When I have this kind of flashback, I feel like I might not wake up. I THINK (not sure) that this is part of a sleep deprevatiion trick: making me THINK I would die if I fell asleep.
I remember mostly the perpetrators being my father, who died when I was 13, and my grandfather, who died when I was 17. I do remember a female also, but am not sure who she is. I'm even remembering my brother-in-law, who married my 20-year-old sister when he was 37.
I know I need to organize this in writing, but for now, I'm just blurting it out. It feels good.
I'm the youngest of seven kids. It is common knowledge that my eledest sister was molested by my father and maternal grandfather. One other sister remembers our father molesting her.
Has anyone gone through hypnosis to regain memories? I almost want to remember without it for fear of people saying memories were planted in my head. They certainly weren't. However, I do believe that mind games were played on me at a very young age. I was made to believe that I was actually IN the gay (some straight) pornos I was made to watch.
There's so much more. Enough for now.
I'm even remembering the countdown for me to fall asleep. When I have this kind of flashback, I feel like I might not wake up. I THINK (not sure) that this is part of a sleep deprevatiion trick: making me THINK I would die if I fell asleep.
I remember mostly the perpetrators being my father, who died when I was 13, and my grandfather, who died when I was 17. I do remember a female also, but am not sure who she is. I'm even remembering my brother-in-law, who married my 20-year-old sister when he was 37.
I know I need to organize this in writing, but for now, I'm just blurting it out. It feels good.
I'm the youngest of seven kids. It is common knowledge that my eledest sister was molested by my father and maternal grandfather. One other sister remembers our father molesting her.
Has anyone gone through hypnosis to regain memories? I almost want to remember without it for fear of people saying memories were planted in my head. They certainly weren't. However, I do believe that mind games were played on me at a very young age. I was made to believe that I was actually IN the gay (some straight) pornos I was made to watch.
There's so much more. Enough for now.