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When I was growing up in the 1960's there was two RC parishes in our small town. One German and the Irish one I went too, just two blocks apart. In the 1980's they joined to be one parish with a new name and a big new church. The parish I went to was sold, the school became apartments, the church a community center and the rectory a women crises center.

I don't know why but I have wanted to go back to that room in the basement where the abuse took place. Father Ryan died in 1965 but he still has a small hold on me. My sister works at the crises center so I asked if I could stop by one Saturday. Sis took me around the old rectory showing me how they use it now. When we got to that room in the basement it was full of toys with children playing. It has been transformed into a room of safety and joy for children in troubled times.

I stood in the center of the room and went back to that day in 1961 when the man did his evil to me. This time I was in control and took back all the power. I reenacted my run out of the room up the stair and out the back door. What a release as I ran into the sunlight again, 42 years later. Tom Muldoon
 
Tom,
What a great story to end the year on! Somehow, closure and sunlight seem to work so well together. Peace, Andrew
 
Wow.

Um, I can go to bed now. Your story of the rectory will allow me to sleep.

Thanks for a great story of transformation of a dark place of silence into a terrific place of joy and light. It is my hope that we can do the same thing with our lives... turning us into consistent forces for good which overcome any evil done to us in the past.

Seriously, thank you... and keep up the great work!

Peace,

Kurt
 
Hi Tom,

Man...so many feelings ran through me as I read your amazing post. I felt fear for you and sadness and surprise and exhilaration. I also felt a bit jealous that you had the opportunity to go back and relive it in a different and freeing way. I don't think I could even find the cabin in the woods where the priest took me so many years ago.

Most importantly though is how proud I feel of you for having the courage to take on that amazing challenge. Be well and happy 2004!!

Taz
 
It made me cry. Wow. To have such a place become someting so much safer and better. I want so much to believe that all places of abuse can become that some day. I can not express properly what it meant to me, what you say.

Leosha
 
Tom,

This is a great story. To me it shows how much the pains of our past are in the past and gone now. Thanks for sharing it.

Joe
 
THat is great, that you took back the power, I am proud of you, and so happy for you. What a step, to be back in the evil, but bwe in control, that is great. ANd I love the irony, that the room where a person did evil to a child, is now a safe haven for children. It is great that the evil does not permeate the room, only the soul of the evil-doer.

All the best for a great new year
scott
 
Tom

It makes my day better that you were able to have that experience. You triumphed over him in a way that is healing and powerful. The image of that place remade into a haven for children is something I will keep with me.

Peace,
Jim
 
Muldoon,

Sounds like it was a good releasing experience.

This made me think for the first time of a visit into the same apartment building that my first SA happened in. It was to my big brother's (Big Brother-Big Sisters) brothers apartment, which was about the same floor in the same area in the building and was during the time of my second SA. The visit was going fine until his step-son called out from the bedroom and I realized that there was a room back there, and I became very uneasy about it. I also "held it" until we were safely out of there, because I wouldn't go into that part of the apartment or the bathroom.

Bill
 
Tom
What a great feeling that must have been, to see toys and signs of kids enjoying themselves in that room.

I bet you're glad you went ?

Dave
 
Guy thanks for all your words. It was a safe thing for me to do because my sister was my guide there and no one could confront me.
It was great to see the children playing in that room. Kind of like the kids are seeding good vibes back our way to all that was abused in that room.

Kurt
It is my hope that we can do the same thing with our lives... turning us into consistent forces for good which overcome any evil done to us in the past.
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I love that idea lets make it our goal for 2004
Tom Muldoon
 
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