***caution contains triggers and cussing***
This is the first portion of my response to "Heather" or nao or whoeever the fuck they want to be or are called:
***CAUTION WHAT I AM ABOUT TO POST MAY BE EXTREMELY OFFENSIVE***
I ALSO HAVE QUOTED FROM OTHER POSTINGS, BY OTHER POSTERS SO AS TO ADD MY COMMENTS TO THOSE POSTS IF THIS IS OUT OF LINE OR INAPPROPRIATE PLEASE FEEL FREE TO DELETE OR REMOVE THIS POST. I RESPOND FROM MY OWN GUT, KNOWLEDGE AND REACTION TO THIS:
I AM HIGHLY OFFENDED BOTH AS A SURVIVOR AND AS A PARTNER TO A SURVIVOR THIS IS DIRECTED SOLEY AT THE NAO/ HEATHER POSTER ----- ***PLEASE NOTE THOSE WHO DID THE RESEARCH TO VERIFY THIS POSTER I GIVE GREAT THANKS AND OWE A GREAT GRATITUDE TO. THERE IS NEVER ENOUGH THANK YOUS AVAILABLE FOR YOUR TIME ENERGY AND CONCERN, COMMITMENT TO SUCH AN ISSUE, FROM THE DEEPEST OF MY SOUL, I OWE YOU GRATITUDE, AND MANY TIMES MY LIFE OR THE SAVING MY PARTNER AND CHILDRENS LIVES.
WITH MUCH PEACE FOR EACH OF US SAMMY
Please note my comments are surrounded by **such as this,sammy**
To the members of the MaleSurvivor board:
Many of you know me as Nao and have reached out to me to help me.
Unfortunately, at this point, I really have to come clean.****I CONSIDER YOU FILTH NOW AND A FULL BLOWN PERPETRATOR WHO MUST BE PROSECUTED TO THE FULL EXTENT OF THE LAW, THERE IS NO WAY FOR YOU TO BECOME CLEAN. My name isn't
Nao (it's Heather), I'm not 14 (I'm 22) and I'm not a boy (though I am still
a victim of SA).****I SERIOUSLY DOUBT THAT ANY TRUE KNOWING VICTIM OF SA WOULD KNOWINGLY PURPOSEFULLY ABUSE ANOTHER SURVIVOR FOR PERSONAL GAIN OTHER THAN TO GROOM AND THEN REABUSE A SURVIVOR = YOU RE NOT A SURVIVOR OF SA IN ANY FORM YOU ARE A LIAR WITH A MENTAL ILLNESS** I currently work in a dental office to make ends meet, ***YOU ARE PRACTICING IN A LICENSED HEALTH FIELD, HELD TO LICENSING STANDARDS BY A LICENSING BOARD WHICH INCLUDES ETHICS, -- YOU SHOULD LEAVE THIS PRACTICE WILLINGLY OR BE AT LEAST OF RISK OF BEING REPORTED FOR YOUR ETHICS VIOLATIONS*** but
really I'm a struggling author trying to get a book published and was posing
at your site as the character in my novel to gain information for my story.**THERE ARE LEGAL AND ETHICAL WAYS TO GET WRITINGS PUBLISHED USE THEM, STUDY THE ETHICS OF WRITINGS, FICTION VS NON FICTION & STUDY THE CASE OF THE NEWSPAPER AUTHOR WHO WAS SUED FOR MISPRERESENTATION AS A HEROIN ADDICT TO WRITE A NON/FICTION / FICTION STORY AND WHAT LEGALLY HAPPENED IN HER CASE****
While I have experienced abuse myself, I didn't know how one would
experience it through male eyes.****A LINE OF BULLSHIT, AS A SURVIVOR OF SA IT IS NOT A FAR REACH TO RESEARCH AND UNDERSTAND THE MALE ASPECT OF SA WITHOUT ABUSING MALE SURVIVORS, THIS ACTION MAKES YOU A PERP SOME THERAPIST SPECIALIZING IN WORKING WITH PERPS SEEK THEM OUT, GET HELP PROTECT THE INNOCENT, YOU AND YOUR STATEMETS DO NOT MAKE YOU INNOCENT YOU PLANNED AND EXPECTED AN OUTCOME = PERPETRATOR*** Part of the reason for the novel is to let
people know that male sexual abuse does exist and when a boy experiences
that, it can have devastating effects.****LEAVE IT TO PROFESSIONALS TO DO THIS JOB, NOT SOME CRAZED MADE UP PERSONALITY SEEKING ATTENTION YOUR ACTIONS IN THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT KEEPS THE SECRETS AND MOVEMENTS FORWARD IN HEALING IN SUCH A SLOW STATE OF MOVING FORWARD AND HEALING AND WORKING, YOU UN DO WHAT REAL PROFESSIONALS DO AND HAVE SUCCEEDED IN DOING IN SMALL STEPS *** My hope is that the boys or men who
read my novel will see how badly this character's life turns out and will
hopefully seek help for themselves to avoid such an end.***THE MEN ALREADY KNOW HOW THEIR LIVES TURN OUT YOU STUPID BITCH AND THE BOYS WHO ARE SEEKING HELP DO NOT NEED YOUR UNSKILLED AND FICTIONAL ENDING TO SEND SOME SORT OF DISTORTED OR FUCKED UP ENDING == YOU COULD BE THE CATALYST TO PUSH A SURVIVOR, TO ACT ON SUICIDE, == DEATH OF YOUR RESPONSIBILITY BUT YOU WOULD NOT SEE A JUSTICE COURT FOR YOUR ACTIONS OF CO CONSPIRACY TO MURDER****
So why pose? Why not simply come onto a message board and ask advice as an
author? That is a problem - most people when dealing with serious things
(such as SA, drug abuse, HIV and other issues that come up in the novel) do
not want to share with an author.****BULL SHIT YOU DID NOT TRY AND THIS IS NOT TRUE AND RE READ THE FUCKING WEBSITE THERE ARE MANY WHO HAVE SHARED THEIR STORIES PUBLICLY, READ A FEW DOCUMENTARIES AND NOVELS (TRY THE LOCAL LIBRARY STUPID BITCH) MANY WILL SHARE AND MANY CONITINUE TO WANT TO SHARE WHY NOT .. ASK. YOU FAILED TO**** They will tell this person "Go to a
library for your research!" It isn't that simple. A library book cannot
tell you how it feels to go through some of this stuff.**BULLSHIT, YOU DIDNT LOOK HARD ENOUGH, YOU DIDNT RESEARCH THIS SITE ENOUGH, AND IF YOU REALLY ARE A SURVIVOR OF SA IT ISNT A FAR REACH, AND DID YOU SEEK INFO FROM A LICENSED COUNSELOR WHO SPECIALIZES IN MALE SA? YOU OBVIOUSLY GOT A LINE INTO SPEAK TO KEN SINGER WHY DIDNT YOU SCHEDULE A MEETING WITH HIM I AM SURE HE WOULD HAVE SHARED NOT ONLY HIS VAST KNOWLEDGE OF THIS AREA BUT REFERRED YOU TO MANY OTHER PROFESSIONALS WHO WOULD HAVE SHARED LIKE INFO*** A book can tell you
facts and figures - how many children are abused, what is the normal age,
etc. It cannot tell you what is in the heart of an abused child's soul or
what goes through his mind when he cries. That can only come from talking
to victims.****YOUR STATEMENT REMINDS ME STRICTLY OF THE FEMALE SURVIVOR AND I WHO COINED A LITTLE PHRASE THE MORBID ALLURE --- THOSE WHO LOVE TO HEAR THE GOD DAMN GRUESOME DETAILS FOR THEIR OWN PERSONAL THRILLS --- DID YOU GET OFF ON THE DETAILS TRUSTED TO YOU ? *** The problem is, victims will seldom talk to authors, so our
only choice to gain information on sensitive issues is infiltration.**STILL BULLSHIT, AND IF IT IS TRUE YOU ARE A SURVIVOR THEN YOU KNOW JUST THE WORD INFILITRATION IS ONE THAT DENOTES DISTRUST AND LIES, AND REABUSE SO FUCK YOUR EXCUSE WITH NO LUBE BITCH!***So why not go to a support group - I'm a girl. They're not going to let me
in a male support group.**YES AND RIGHTLY SO DUMBY, IF YOU REALLY ARE A GIRL GO FOR YOUR OWN SUPPOSED SA ISSUES SEPARATE THE TWO!**** My only choice was to do it online.***COMPLETE EXCUSE, SOUNDS LIKE SOME EXCUSE A PERP WOULD USE TO BLAME IT ON THE VICTIM BUT HE/SHE WAS 9 YEARS OLD AND SO SEXY IN HIS / HER UNDEROO SUPERMAN PAJAMAS.. F UCK YOU BITCH!***
There was another reason - by posing as my character I was able to put the
feelings he has in the novel out there and see if they're genuine. Put him
to the test as a character - is he believable? I found out that he is and
that's important.****YOU ARE SO FULL OF BULLSHIT I AM SURPRISED YOU WERENT THE ONE SUED BY THE CATTLE FARMERS INSTEAD OF OPRAH WINFREY === ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS READ THE SURVIVOR STORIES FUCK YOU AGAIN !***
I was informed that some people thought it sounded as though I was looking
for cyber-sex, as I had said to someone on the board, I'm not even 100%
clear on what cyber-sex IS!***BULLLSHIT, ITS SELF EXPLANATORY TERM & IF THEY FELT THAT IS WHAT YOU WERE LOOKING FOR I WOULD TRUST THAT THEIR FLAGS AND GUT RESPONSES WERE PROBABLY EXACT AND RIGHT ON PERPS GET THEIR THRILLS FROM THAT SHIT TOO!*** So I'm sorry if I got too detailed and I'm
sorry if people thought that was my intention, it wasn't at all.**YOURE ONLY SORRY YOU GOT CAUGHT BUT I AM NOT SORRY YOU GOT CAUGHT***
As a novice author I broke the first rule of infiltration - I got too
emotionally involved.*** I GET THE FEELING YOU WERE FULFILLING YOUR MORBID ALLURE NEED. YOU LACK EMOTION OR YOU WOULD NOT HAVE EVEN THOT OF SOMETHING SO FUCKING EVIL AS TO HURT THOSE WHO ARE ALREADY STRUGGLING AND STILL INJURED AND AGAIN FUCK YOU BITCH*** My original plan was to post the survivor story and
just sit back and read the board, but I went too far. I cried with you
guys, for you guys. **** YOU CRIED YOU GOT CAUGHT AND LIKE MANY PREDATORES AND PERPS, YOU LACK IMPULSE CONTROL == YOURE A PERP***I prayed for all of you.***I DONT WANT YOUR FUCKING PRAYERS, WHO DO YOU PRAY TO. RATHER YOU PREY UPON IS THE MEANING*** You men on the board are all
so strong and I do wish you all the very best in your recoveries and
healing. I'm sorry I hurt you and betrayed you, especially those of you who
spent hours talking to me thinking they were helping a hurting child.***A HURTING CHILD, GOD SEND YOU TO HELL FOR PORTRAYING SOMEONE WHO IS EVERY MOMENT OF EVERYDAY SOMEWHERE IN THIS WORLD WHO IS IN DESPERATE NEED OF REAL HELP AND YOU SUCCEEDED IN VALIDATING WHAT SO MANY OF US HEARD GROWING UP YOURE JUST BLOWING THINGS OUT OF PROPORTION FUCK YOU C**T!!! I
know how it feels to be hurt and betrayed, it's not a good feeling and I'm
very sorry.***NO YOU DONT IF YOU DID YOU NEVER WOULD HAVE DONE WHAT YO DID*** I never set out to hurt anyone but I did. Many times I felt
guilty because I knew all of you were pouring out your heart and soul on the
website and I was only doing research.***THERE WAS NO RESEARCH YOU WERE GETTING YOUR FUCKED UP JOLLIES OFF OF SOMEONE ELSES PAIN***
Believe me, as a religious person, I've felt guilty about lying to all of
you. It hasn't been easy, many times I've thought of coming clean and
didn't until it was necessary.***WHAT RELIGION DO YOU PRACTICE SO THOSE OF US WHO HAVE BEEN INJURED NOT ONLY BY OUR RESEPECTIVE RELIGIONS, BUT OUR SPIRITS DAMAGED CAN AVOID THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF THE ONE YOU SO CLAIM TO HAVE AS A RELIGIOUS PERSON AGAIN FUCK YOU***
I promise that no one's name will be used in the novel, I also will not
quote any specific person word for word and no one else's survivor stories
will be written in there either. You will all remain confidential and after
writing this, I will delete the false e-mail accounts I have set up and
throw away any e-mail address of yours that I've obtained along the way.*** I WOULD SUSPECT THAT WITH YOU PROBABLY READING EVERYTHING THAT HAS BEEN POSTED IN RESPONSE TO YOUR CONFESSION YOU SHOULD THINK STRONGLY ABOUT PUTTING ANYTHING INTO PRINT --- LAWS CAN BE ENFORCED, AND IF THERE IS A WAY TO PROSECUTE YOU SOMEONE WILL FIND A WAY TO LEGALLY PROTECT THOSE WHO NEED IT THE MOST, ONES WHO ARE VICITIMIZED REPEATEDLY.. THROW YOUR SUPPOSED DAMN BOOK AWAY AND GO DO SOMETHING ELSE WITH YOUR LIFE LIKE GET MENTAL HELP****
However, the lessons you've taught me, everything I've learned from being at
the site, will be a part of the book in my own words.**THEY ARENT YOUR WORDS IF YOU USE THE INFO FROM THIS SITE*** It is my hope that
these words will reach other survivors and they will begin the healing
process. Nao isn't real in the flesh and blood sense but because of the
valuable knowledge I've gained from all of you, he will seem real to those
reading the novel.***WHICH IS TOO FUCKING BAD IN SOME SENSE, HEY STUPID HERES AN IDEA, GO DOWN AND RESEARCH SOME OF THE CASES IN FAMILY COURT, OR GO SIT IN ON SOME FAMILY COURT SESSIONS, READ SOME CASE FILES FROM THE POLICE DEPT. THERE ARE REAL REAL VERY REAL REAL CHILDREN IN NEED AND ARE LIVING THESE LIVES. READ A LOCAL FUCKING NEWSPAPER ITS ALL OVER THE MEDIA SPILLING OUT WHAT HAPPENS --- YOU DIDNT NEED TO MAKE A GOD DAMN THING UP.. ITS ALL RIGHT THERE VALIDATED ALREADY YOUR JUST A PERP LOOKING FOR MATERIAL FOR MORE OF A POWER RUSH . STICK IT ALL UP YOUR FUCKING EDITING HOLE***
Believe it or not, you have helped me deal with issues of my own abuse and I
thank you. I do hope that the advice I've given people here has helped them
as well, because it was sincere.***WARNING TO ALL WHO MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE GOTTEN SOME ADVICE IT CAME FROM A PERP AND A LIAR DO NOT BE VICTIMIZED AGAIN**** I am still praying for all of you.**STOP I DONT WANT YOUR KIND OF PRAYERS***
I won't ever post here again but I can't promise that I'll never infiltrate
another message board.***THANKS FOR THE WARNING MANY OF US VISIT AND POST ON OTHER BOARDS FOR SUPPORT, WELL BE WATCHING FOR YOUR SORRY UGLY ASS, AND WILL DO OUR BEST TO BLOW YOUR COVER EVEN THEN..*** Unfortunately, it's just part of the research job. ***LYING IS NOT A PART OF RESEARCH GO BACK TO RESEARCH CLASS 101 GOTTA HAVE CONTROLS AND NOT LIE TO SKEW THE ANSWERSDUH ANYTHING YOU SURMISE PRINT OR PUT OUT AS KNOWN OR VALIDATED IS A LIE AND BULLSHIT THEREFORE GIVING THE PERPS MORE POWER TO KEEP ON RAPING AND PERPING GO JOIN THEM AND BURN IN HELL WITH THEM****
Writing is not an easy task; it's especially hard when dealing with serious
issues.**THEN STOP IT*** I will promise though, that should I infiltrate, I will try my
hardest first to gain the information without having to resort to that.***REMEMBER YOU NOW ARE BEING WATCHED BY A LARGER COMMUNITY, THE WEB IS VERY BIG AND WORD TRAVELS FAST WITH SHIT LIKE YOU PULLED***
I ask that no one attempt to contact me.** OF COURSE NOT!!! ALL PERPS LIKE TO HIDE AFTER THEY DO THEIR DEED, IF I WAS YOU ID HIDE PERMENANTLY.**** I will not contact any of you
again. If any of you one day pick up my novel***YOU DONT HAVE A NOVEL YOURE A LIAR*** I hope you will be able to
recognize the valuable information contained within it and that you will
feel even slightly happy that you may have helped someone begin to heal.***HAPPINESS IN HELPING SOMEONE HEAL CAN BEGOT FROM THIS SITE HERE WHERE IT IS SAFE AND MONITORED TO FIND AND EXPOSE SHITBAGS LIKE YOU***Again I'm very sorry that I've hurt people here. I wish you all the best in
your recoveries and healing and I will continue praying for all of you.
Peace to you and may God bless you,
Heather ***YOURE ONLY SORRY YOU GOT CAUGHT YOU BITCH C**T, AND IF YOU REALLY BELIEVE IN OUR CREATOR THEN YOU WILL GO AWAY AND SEEK MUCH NEEDED MENTAL HEALTH HELP, RUN DONT WALK TO YOUR NEAREST MENTAL HEALTH FACILITY**** ---- SAMMY