Recovery
I am new to this board and to recovery. I have made great strides in my recovery. After years of drug , alchohol and sex addictions, I am finally free of these maladies. I have gone ten months sober and I have been working with a therapist, learning to feel again. For so long I did whatever I could not to feel. Life is good now, I have restored many loving relationships which I had for so long avoided. Its strange having been sexually abused you would think the last thing I ever wanted to do was have sex, but it was just the opposite, it was all I ever thought of. I objectified and sexuallized everyone I would come into contact with, I am still working on it but I'm getting better. I try to consider their soul first not their body...but its still difficult. I felt like I could never be loved so I never let anyone get too close. Now I see how wrong I was. Life is good and I see how God is working in my life. I now know that I had to go thru what I went thru to be the person I am today. After years of being angry, I'm now grateful. I know that my experience may oneday help others and that is my purpose in life now... to help others. After not telling anyone what happend to me for 27 years, I can now talk freely about it. I know it is God working in my life and that I have a lot to offer. If you are new please find someone to talk with... a therapist... a support group. It helps and tell them everything, because its the secrets that rip us apart. This is going to be my first sober Christmas in 20+ years, I am so happyu.
God Bless you and I wish everyone a Merry Christmans and a Happy New Year.
Guy D.
God Bless you and I wish everyone a Merry Christmans and a Happy New Year.
Guy D.
