Recovery

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I saw my therapist for the last time this week, after 5 months of sessions. I feel I've pretty much covered everything I needed to, and feel like I'm well on the road to "recovery".

So, how do we know when we are recovered? For me, I feel so different about myself than I did 5 months ago. It's an amazing transformation. I now recognize when the old tapes start playing and can shut them off immediately, and begin playing the "right" tapes. That little feat alone was very hard to conquer, but I believe it was a major turning point. I now longer wonder what I did to make all the abusive situations in life happen to me. Once I had that lightbulb moment, things really started rolling. :)

Guys, after decades of feeling worthless, shamed, guilty, and undeserving, I finally feel validated, worthy, guiltless, and liberated. For those just beginning dealing with this, please understand that you won't always feel like you do now. There is a light at the end of the tunnel, hope is out there.
 
One of the great and completely unexpected rewards of making the often difficult steps in recovery is the joy of hearing the relief in the voices of our fellows and seeing the healing take place.

It is also very good to know that I am not alone on this pathway called recovery. In fact, I am pretty sure that it is only in the company of others like me that I am able to recover.

Thank you for sharing this.

Sometimes I feel that I have so much of myself invested in the pain and suffering of the past that I question whether I really do wish to continue the arduous work of recovering from the sexual abuse.

Your post is exactly what I need to assure me that indeed I do want to continue.

Thanks,
 
I found that everytime I thought I was all recovered, something happened that made life even better. I started to think there was never finding full recovery because of these jumps.

It wasn't until I realized I was doing better than most of the 'normal' people I see that I knew I was better. It turned out that all the tools I picked up to deal with all the junk like meditation and all that help me deal with little everyday stuff that other people can't handle.

Don't get down if you find every now and then that something can still get to you, that happens for a while and from what I read you are really close, but I think you may still get some really satisfying leaps that make you even better.

To answer your question though, when you start asking "when do you know you recovered" in the way you ask it, you're getting somewhere.

I just wrote a big update in survivor stories, click my quote and it will take you there.

I hope what I said makes sense.
 
Eddie - Im sure my lightbulbs started to burn a little brighter when I read your post! Well done!

Best wishes ...Rik
 
Eddie,

thanks for the inspiration,

Guys, after decades of feeling worthless, shamed, guilty, and undeserving, I finally feel validated, worthy, guiltless, and liberated
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Is this not how we should all feel anyway? Through all of this, it was never our fault. We should never feel worthless, we should never have carried the guilt of the perps for so long, doing the damage along the way, to ourselves, and our loved one's.

You're on the right track,

take care,

ste
 
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