Hauser...
6 months ago I felt much the way you do now.
The anxiety was all consuming, and the depression was "coming to a head".
I ended up diverting from my way to work one night and ended up in the Emergency room because I knew what i was feeling wasn't right.
Long story short I am on Paxil (GREAT for anxiety and depression), clonazapham (for anxiety and to help with sleep) and Imovane (again to help with sleep/nightmares)
In 6 weeks I was a new man. The fog that engulfed my head was gone. The iron vise around my chest was gone. I felt like I hadn't in longer than i could remember. I had forgotten how good it felt to feel good.
What I didn't realize is that Depression isn't only in yor head, but it causes you physicak pain. Pain that comes on gradually and you don't notice that it is there until it is gone. Aches, pains, headaches, sore back, stomach problems...
Go see a GOOD Shrink, go to the emergency room to get referred and some meds. Give it a few weeks and you WILL see some light at the end of the tunnel.