Reality
Healing light
Registrant
This week I was on a work exchange , nobody knew me or anything about me so the normal getting to know you questions went on but I also had the ability the first in years since college probably, to forget who I am and where I came from
And I glossed over everything. Because I'm not strong enough to be me. I haven't lied but I have denied myself the right to be me and be proud of who I am and that makes me sad
I'm questioning why I'm ashamed I haven't hurt noone. I'm not a bad person but, I feel like I am.
It's not about disclosing the abuse as such. But like my messed up marriage not mentioned that , it's very easy for people to assume my partner is the bio mum of both our children but she's not.
if you emit the darkness I have found there's this vast empty space called my childhood and some of my life before I disclosed that makes me sad and my inner child has been completely ignored he doesn't fit in the facade of the happy bloke with a partner 2 children an nice job who likes holidays
Who has come home for the weekend to see his family. I came home for my therapy as well but of course happy blokes don't go therapy.
Im being who I want to be way ahead of actually getting there.
I would be the first to encourage someone not to be ashamed but can't take my own advise
So I'm looking to see if any of yous have any
Peace
HL
And I glossed over everything. Because I'm not strong enough to be me. I haven't lied but I have denied myself the right to be me and be proud of who I am and that makes me sad
I'm questioning why I'm ashamed I haven't hurt noone. I'm not a bad person but, I feel like I am.
It's not about disclosing the abuse as such. But like my messed up marriage not mentioned that , it's very easy for people to assume my partner is the bio mum of both our children but she's not.
if you emit the darkness I have found there's this vast empty space called my childhood and some of my life before I disclosed that makes me sad and my inner child has been completely ignored he doesn't fit in the facade of the happy bloke with a partner 2 children an nice job who likes holidays
Who has come home for the weekend to see his family. I came home for my therapy as well but of course happy blokes don't go therapy.
Im being who I want to be way ahead of actually getting there.
I would be the first to encourage someone not to be ashamed but can't take my own advise
So I'm looking to see if any of yous have any
Peace
HL