Rage, there's never an end (TRIGGERS!)

[crisispoint]

I do feel better than I have in a long time, I do, but after reading NewMom's post in F&F, and knowing how much pain is suffered here, and I'm consumed with rage to the f**kers who caused it.

If I had less of a conscience and less of a respect for basic humanity, even for these animals, I'd kill them all.

Get me a gun, drive around, find them and shoot and shoot and shoot until the cops finally brought me down.

Because of what the animals in my life did to me, I was damned before I had a chance. But I won't let others be dragged down with me.

If I had less of a conscience.
If I had less of a heart.

Does that make me better or wrose than them? I can't say.

I'm just sad and angry that I feel this way.

Peace to us all, and may our pain and anger find its proper place. And use. Creating and healing rather than destroying and hurting.

Scot

 

[theo]

scot,
it is so difficult to create and heal in the midst of the darkness when we are so consumed by the raw emotions we do not comprehend. somewhere within us all there is a place that still reaches for the healing and the creative act. for me, it is the reference to the horizon, but in the end, it is always about hope and how we find it and use it. we stumble, but we continue. that is the mark of not only a survivor, but also a winner. our journey continues, as does the stumbles, but the key is that we continue even when we think we can't. journey well, my friend.

 

[parttimecop]

Some people need killin as the saying goes. There are some truly evil people in this world. I can't understand why some people are alive. That however is not for me to decide. I don't understand God's purposes.

However I did tell a person recently that I can keep 50 shots in side of a person with no misses out to 25 yards with my pistol.(a basic course of fire against a human shaped target, I keep most shots in the 9-10 rings) The message was basically to not fuck with those I love. I would love to knock that mother fucker out. I want to hurt him something fierce. But I want him to understand hurting those I love is not an option for him.

There is something about being a man that brings these situations up. ABout standing up for what is right. What the answer is, I don't know. But it has to be there somewhere in the middle ground.

 

[Bill_1965]

Scot,

If I had less of a conscience.
If I had less of a heart.

Does that make me better or wrose than them?

Yes, they have no concience. If they did, they choose to ignore it. Even more dispictable.

Your conscience and heart makes you, you. Special.

Take care,
Bill