Erik,
Like Brian says, seek the help of professionals. Also, get some support from family, friends, and groups (such as here).
For information on coping with PTSD, check out: https://www.ncptsd.org/facts/treatment/fs_coping.html . There is some good information there (although they haven't linked MaleSurvivor, yet).
Take care,
Bill
P.S. In case Brian or I didn't mention it, check it out with a pdoc. Seriously.