PTSD ...it gets worse ..nothing helps!

PTSD ...it gets worse ..nothing helps!
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Niels

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Despite of all the therapy I have been through over the last 17 years and despite having tried all sorts of antidepressants my chronic PTSD does not seem to get better. On the contrary it seems to get worse every year.
Everything seems to trigger flashbacks, intrusive thoghts and I seem to get more and more panick attaks and increasing social phobia.
I have nightmares again and I can not fall asleep. And I feel I have no energy whatsoever. My body aches all over and I feel sore like I have beaten up all the time.It feels like I am spiralling downwards into another depression. even getting up in the morning, shaving and showering takes and effort and it feels like an insurmountable task.I simply do not know what to do anymore. I feel like I have lost all hope that therapy can help and no meds seem to really help. I really am sick and tired of this.
 
Hi Neils,

Hang in there-I think we all get sick and tired of it, but don't give up. Breathe, do whatever you need to do. Hang in there.

Halibut
 
Niels,

I'm no therapist, but I just wonder if any of your therapy has been aimed at addressing the causes of your PTSD. That's what my T did, and it seems to have worked rather well. From what you say, for example, it sounds like you still see the world as full of danger and possible harm. That would not be surprising, but it is an issue that can be addressed in therapy.

There's also the problem that meds that work for you for awhile may not remain effective, in which case the combination and dosages need to be changed.

Just some thoughts. I am so sorry things seem so bleak for you right now.

Much love,
Larry
 
Niels,

I have PTSD as well. I have found out that my flashbacks and depression and anxiety tend to get worse right before something major is about to break for me in my recovering a lost memory or that I am taking a major step forward in my recovery. I have been out of therapy for over a year an am starting back next month. But when I was in therapy I was asked to join a PTSD support group which helped out we worked through a workbook called "The PTSD Workbook" by Mary Beth Williams and Soili Poijula from New Harbinger Press. This is a good workbook and something you may want to look at if you haven't. Now just take note I am no professional just someone who has been there and knows what it is like when it feels like your whole world is falling apart. I hope these words help you in some way and that you are able to find peace and that your flashbacks and depression lessen as the days go by. I know this time of year Depression tends to get worse because of the weather as well so maybe some of the sunlight bulbs for the house would help as well I have used them in the past and they seem to help and when I am really down any little thing that helps is huge.

Josh
 
Niels

I am sorry that things are so hard for you right now.

I just wanted to share my experience with you. I felt the same as you described nightmares, depression, no energy etc. this lasted about a month or so and i couldn't understand what was going on. I am now feeling much better after having a bit of a breakthrough in therapy. I felt better almost straight away and couldn't believe the change inside myself. My therapist said that it may have been my subconcious mind working things through and the stress was manifesting itself physically as well as emotionally. It's a lot to deal with after all.

Just wanted to tell you to hang in there and things will and can get better.

Take care

Craig
 
yes Larry the traumatic sexual and physical abuse that is the cause of my chronic PTSD have been adressed and analysed with quite a few therapists. Even did the EMDR therapy.

I ordered the PTSD workbook from amazon today...and yes I do have full spectrum lighting since I do have a SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder tendency) so thanks Cerritus.

Also it seems like it is typcal that it comes in cycles. Cycles of peace and calmness, and then again cycles with all the PTSD symptoms.

My hope was that it would become better over the years, but it really hasnt. It is so discouraging and makes me loose hope that is possible to recover from this. But thank you guys I will hang in there and do everything I can to stop the downward spiral.
 
Niels,

I just hope you will continue to talk about this problem here. A willingness to talk about our issues is incredibly empowering, at least in my experience, and I hope that will help you as well.

Much love,
Larry
 
Ihave lived with PTSD for almost 30 years . It has ben one long night mare . and wrecked my life ...
ironicly because I have PTSD the VA says that I am not able to hold a job . and I am concidered as a 60% disabled veteran .
I would gladly give up my pension for my life back
 
Niels,
I really do not know what to say other than I am praying for you. I know we all have experiences and feelings that are very similar, however, everything is also very personal and specific to each of us. If I had the power, I would snap my fingers and take this away from all of us. I do not and so I have decided to have power over my abuse. In allowing myself anger at the situation, I have determined I will not let the bastards win!!! It may sound simplictic, but it works for me. That may not work for you, but it may help knowing you have ALL of the people on this site cheering you on and we truly care that you get better. Hang in there, my friend! The one thing any of us can really ask for out of life is to be cared about and loved, and you are both. Take power from that! We are here for you. Good luck and God bless!
BC
 
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