Psychomotor retardation experiences w/ depression
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Hi, I wanted to make a thread about this topic in hopes to hear about others exerience with these symptoms and maybe have a discussion.
If you're unfamiliar with the term https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3646325/
Summary of my depression:
I've had severe depression for 6-7 years now, had two periods when I thought I'd decided to end my life (one early on, one recently- not anymore though!). I've also had bulimia for a few years during this, though it was only in a very self-harming severity for about a year, so some symtpoms might be from this.
I can remember my mind starting to feel foggy as early as my early teens, though an IQ test I had done when 12 due to my math problems made me suspect I started to be quite affected early then, as I had extremely low scores with all speedy tests, but otherwise was in the average-high level of scores. The report mentions me giving impression of a "phobic" fear of failing. My highest was 128 in verbal communication, which is something to be proud of, but it's painfully ironic how I feel perhaps most disabled in those areas now.
My symptoms:
Very foggy mind - making up simple plans, like where to place and in which order to put the ingredients to a meal. Remembering things is very hard. Can easily space out for moments.
Hands, knees and feet shake, feet feels "round" so bad balance, feels like I "cant" move my body fast, for example when reaching out to pick up a glass, theres a resistance and a small pain during the movement.
Body and joint aches (with one knee starting to crack LOUD when bent low and up again about a year ago)
Random places going slightly numb/feeling tingling suddenly.
Whole face feels stiff, tingly and numb, even tongue. Sometimes an "icy" feeling over my scalp when very anxious. Lips and tongue are hard to move so I pronounce words badly.
A feeling I can best describe as "cold water" in my chest. Skin rashes. And ofcourse, I'm very slow with forming sentences when talking, reacting to verbal info, taking it in, memorize...
Even if I temporarily feel some different feelings than everything included in depression the physical symptoms are just the same still, even if I feel some positive feelings, though most time I feel close to tears but can rarely cry.
For many years now I've felt I have a "fragmented" mind so sometimes I feel just numb and/or quite joyful temporarily despite obviously having deep depression. This used to be so confusing but "inner family system therapy" makes sense out of this.
Check this out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dx9M3O9la_E
I also recommend Gerlach's site, sfhelp.org.
I'd really like to hear it if you've had any of these symptoms along with deep depression, how you managed, and if they were reduced. Thanks for reading.
If you're unfamiliar with the term https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3646325/
Summary of my depression:
I've had severe depression for 6-7 years now, had two periods when I thought I'd decided to end my life (one early on, one recently- not anymore though!). I've also had bulimia for a few years during this, though it was only in a very self-harming severity for about a year, so some symtpoms might be from this.
I can remember my mind starting to feel foggy as early as my early teens, though an IQ test I had done when 12 due to my math problems made me suspect I started to be quite affected early then, as I had extremely low scores with all speedy tests, but otherwise was in the average-high level of scores. The report mentions me giving impression of a "phobic" fear of failing. My highest was 128 in verbal communication, which is something to be proud of, but it's painfully ironic how I feel perhaps most disabled in those areas now.
My symptoms:
Very foggy mind - making up simple plans, like where to place and in which order to put the ingredients to a meal. Remembering things is very hard. Can easily space out for moments.
Hands, knees and feet shake, feet feels "round" so bad balance, feels like I "cant" move my body fast, for example when reaching out to pick up a glass, theres a resistance and a small pain during the movement.
Body and joint aches (with one knee starting to crack LOUD when bent low and up again about a year ago)
Random places going slightly numb/feeling tingling suddenly.
Whole face feels stiff, tingly and numb, even tongue. Sometimes an "icy" feeling over my scalp when very anxious. Lips and tongue are hard to move so I pronounce words badly.
A feeling I can best describe as "cold water" in my chest. Skin rashes. And ofcourse, I'm very slow with forming sentences when talking, reacting to verbal info, taking it in, memorize...
Even if I temporarily feel some different feelings than everything included in depression the physical symptoms are just the same still, even if I feel some positive feelings, though most time I feel close to tears but can rarely cry.
For many years now I've felt I have a "fragmented" mind so sometimes I feel just numb and/or quite joyful temporarily despite obviously having deep depression. This used to be so confusing but "inner family system therapy" makes sense out of this.
Check this out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dx9M3O9la_E
I also recommend Gerlach's site, sfhelp.org.
I'd really like to hear it if you've had any of these symptoms along with deep depression, how you managed, and if they were reduced. Thanks for reading.
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