You definitely belong here. Your story is not unlike many of us. I hope you put aside the lie that says you’re disqualified. No matter what you wanted and for whatever need you felt that it met; you were not of age of consent. The adult knew right and wrong and instead he exploited you needs.I am not sure how much of this I can write out but the environment with my buddies dad never felt dangerous. I never felt like I could lose my life. He knew my dad had left us I believed he wanted to help. It's hard for me to view him as monster and I feel like that disqualifies me from this site. He is gone now dead and I felt bad he had died. I know I am 50 now I know if someone did that to my kid I would see a monster. I just had to write this out because at times Since I have joined here I keep hearing that I should not be here besides I kept going back. I was 11 I turned 12 and it kept happening.
I’m curious where you’re hearing this from.Since I have joined here I keep hearing that I should not be here
I think many of us think the same thing. I think it comes from low self esteem that many of us deal with.I have a hard time in chat when things are slow and no one says anything after I enter and after a few minutes I have to leave with a rejected feeling and wondering if I do really belong here.
Sorry I took that wrong that someone else was telling you you don't belong here. Coming from your on head it is a symptom of the abuse I think. I don't feel I belong anywhere's much and I had some real traumatic experiences. I know it is in my head I don't belong anywhere. I know this to be my own brain telling me this and I am sure it is wrong.
I have a hard time in chat when things are slow and no one says anything after I enter and after a few minutes I have to leave with a rejected feeling and wondering if I do really belong here. Triggering a rage in me that scares me. I am told that is an abandonment issue. There are times I felt completely alone and discarded.
Take good care
We really need to get beyond this some how. It has effected me at most of the sites I have been to that have chat, so I think it is all on me to change this some how. I have been trying to but like everything else it takes nothing to set me back again.U grow uncomfortable in silences and feel sometimes my presence an interruption.
I hover on the name and check the pop-up profile - says how many posts and when they joined. If Posts are very low (even if they have been here a while) or if they are new (in the last month) I try to welcome them. If they are VERY new (in the last week) I try to give them a bit of extra attention.How does everybody know he's a newbie?