physicality

[markgreyblue]

one of the things that has blocked me from having
cohesive life -
is that my physical - sexuality - was awakened far
earlier than it should have been - there was ea as well and so i tend to come off as a child -
with all of the childlike reactions -

i kind of have been frozen in that spot way back then - i am learning finally to take care of myself as a self respecting individual -

but i hope this kind of presentation of that thought - the above paragraph might somehow be helpful?? once frozen it is taking a lot of work and pain to get grow -

it is kind of helping me to know what my issue is - at least the complexity of it -

 

[scarman]

Keep at it brother!! It is hard on us all, but we stand stronger with the knowledge that we are not alone in this fight to regain our lives.

I too feel like I'm acting like the teenager I was when i was abused. I just recently realized this. And looking back on my life since it happened, it is classic.

Anyhow, you are on the right path. Follow it and you will continue to grow.

shawn

 

[Leosha]

Yes, I can understand some what you say, of how we were 'awakened' so early to things we were not ready for even in best circumstance. I think how I deal with that was to shut myself down from the sexual part of myself for long time. It is now that I am having some of those feelings again, but not feeling them in all good way. Feeling them with guilt, disgust, fear. It is what I must work through. I know that for others, it work differently. But I guess it all does go back to what you say, the root of it.

Leosha