perhaps i was triggered by this

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- i think i have realized that - we cannot pressure friends too much in their lives -

to do or be something for us that they are not available to do - support or give - whatever

as much as we - I or any of us - have our own angst -or complexities of things -

each of us has the pressures in our lives to do the best we can - to take care of ourselves

i don't know- this is really confusing at times - to be friends - and to wonder about 'jabs' they make and real insensitivities after being very available and like listening and stuff -
perhaps it is just a perceived harshness that was not meant? i don't know - but that was my experience --

- just been triggered a lot recently to open up to things - and i guess - rather than feel a repression of sorts to shut all off inside -

i rather think that there are friends you can share some things with - and others not -

it is weird to think of this - if some - i feel request a real real closeness - and yet then turn around and make real harsh comments and stuff - phew!

whatever - sorry for my vent - i think i have to regard this - as perhaps a lesson in -
boundaries -

mark

and who and how to talk to someone about stuff