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[F.A.]

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For the last few days, I have felt hungover and anxious at the same time covered by a lovely layer of depression. I feel like I'm crying and screaming at the same time while looking out from deep within darkness. Is this a sign I'm going to break down again in less than a month? My current state of emotional health really scares me, I have never been like this that I can remember or maybe I have blocked it all out. My body hurts, my mind hurts and my soul hurts and I just want to run away but this will just follow me.

 

[manipulated]

FA
I take your post and your analysis as a healthy sign. call, text, email your T . If they don’t respond call Community Mental Health. If they don’t respond call your suicide hotline. Now before it is a break in the next month.

We hear you. We care. But you need professional intervention. Yoga? Qi Gong? Something physical. And deep slow breathes.

 

[NC-Survivor]

may be more of a break-THROUGH, Than a break-DOWN. Letting out emotions is a good thing.

 

[NC-Survivor]

I agree, contact your T.

 

[F.A.]

I will text my T

 

[manipulated]

Exactly as NC said this IS a break through not a breakdown! Keep going.

 

[SmartShadow]

I remember a T once sharing the concept of ”falling together” as part of the healing process, as opposed to the ”falling apart” from trauma.
It can be a hell of a ride. I learn to practice a lot of self-care and grounding techniques.
This process didn’t last indefinitely.
It was a season of time that eventually slowed and went away.
The process eventually gave me a lot of new strength and stability allmost like a reward for going through the intense pain and destabilization.

In some ways I think we have to briefly experience what we couldn’t handle back in the day in order to actually get past it.
I think we have to ”realize” just how bad it really was for us so the old trauma can be processed.

I’m really sorry you’re going through this painful process.

 

[flying]

*Possible Triggers*
For the last few days, I have felt hungover and anxious at the same time covered by a lovely layer of depression. I feel like I'm crying and screaming at the same time while looking out from deep within darkness. Is this a sign I'm going to break down again in less than a month? My current state of emotional health really scares me, I have never been like this that I can remember or maybe I have blocked it all out. My body hurts, my mind hurts and my soul hurts and I just want to run away but this will just follow me.

I hope you find some peace. I know sharing here helps me. Hang in there

 

[F.A.]

Guys thank you for listening and sharing. Yup, it's falling into place what is breaking are the wedges that were put there by my trauma that keep my parts from fitting perfectly.
Thank you @flying @SmartShadow @manipulated @NC-Survivor