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I think that the time may have come where I observe the site rather than post things here.

Maybe I dont post so good these days, and maybe I should refrain from posting.

Why? because sometimes it takes me so long to check my post for errors, and I seem to type backwards and forwards, like getting letters mixed up, and then not really getting to the point.

I dont suppose somehow anyone listens to me, but that is not a new thing to me, I have a drink in front of me, that I really need but it is just a mess in the bottom of the glass, so if I drink it, it is just like sludge.

Yuck, I just hate me sometimes, I hate me because I never got where I should be in life, people like me, but I dont know why, I just dont know why, cos , I dont like me, but I have to.

Maybe I dont relate so much, but ppl like me, and I not know why?

I just have to somehow get to the other side of life, and find enjoyment like its meant to be,

ste
 
I listen. Enjoyment comes from the moment not the object. Keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Don't worry about spelling and grammar. this isn't grade 4.
 
ste, sometimes the best writing comes from just letting go and hitting the button before I can edit or delete. You can do like Bobby and write in the Unmod all the time, so you can just let go and not worry about triggering if something happens to slip out.

I like you, ste. Sometimes I think you try too hard to be liked, like the real you never gets a chance to shine. I don't care what you can do or what you know or who you know. It's about, Who is ste? I think, inside, ste is a very caring person with a heart of gold. I also think ste uses caring for others as a way to feel good about himself. SA was not your fault, ste. Sometimes it feels as if we're damaged at our core, flawed beyond repair, but it's not true. My uncle SA me, but it didn't change the real me, who I am. SA didn't change the real personality of little ste, either. I like who you are, even what little you've show us. I wish you could like you, too. Like you enough that you can let us see who ste really is. Blame the perp. Don't blame ste.
 
Ste - (stay with this) I don't know if you are a martian, if you were born on the moon or developed in a test tube in a lab somewhere!?

I don't know what colour you are - you could be yellow, brown, white or a million shades in between!?

What I do know is that you come here because you have issues just like I do. Just like over 2500 other people do that we know of.

I also know that you say what you feel (that is good - I wish I had been able to speak so much sooner).

Ste - you also care about other people...that's what really matters! Just remember to care about yourself...Ste matters as well!

Best wishes Ste (and everyone else)...Rik
 
Ste,

I am sorry that you are feeling so frustrated with yourself, and are censoring yourself here. But I understand.

Sometime it feels that the times I need most to be here, I stay far away. I really fear at this point posting here when I am most in need. It is an irrational fear, I am sure. But I have it. So be it.

I am not sure what is happening in your head that is making you so upset and hard on yourself right now. But I hope it is something you can work out. You say that people like you, and you do not know why. I think people like you very much for reasons just as this post. You said how you feel, not some politically correct thing how you think you should be or feel. You are yourself, and yourself is appreciated here.

Leosha
 
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