Part of me

As I am gearing up for PTSD treatment (after the current situation) for combat, which will include my MST, I have finally realized that a part of me never left that jungle in Cambodia. And part of me never left the island where the MST occurred. I am not the man (boy, actually) that went over there. I have anger issues, I have fits of rage sometimes. And most of all, the nightmares about those places.

I really think those two things were exacerbated by my CSA. This is just another hill to face. I want peace with what I did and what happened to me. Like the peace I have found with the csa.
 
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