Yes. For myself I feel trapped, stuck and imprisoned. I cannot move out of whatever it is that ails my own being. I cannot keep my mind from going back to that abuse, that torture, that childhood. Those people, those abusers, and yet I am an old man now. I cannot escape my past, and I am paralyzed by it even though I don't want to be. It's like a green monkey weighing on my shoulders, dragging me down. Even in my dreams. Yes paralyzed is who I myself feel most every day. And I hate it but I don't know how to NOT feel this way. I shouldn't complain. But I don't know what is really wrong with me. I think most people who have been abused feel paralyzed at some points in their lives. But I don't know really ...