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Out of touch...
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survive75

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Hey all... it's been a while since I've been able to post here. It's not that I don't want to, but I just don't seem to have anything encouraging to say. I'm in a really negative place right now, I guess, and I don't want to have that rub off on anyone here.

I just want everyone to know that I want to reply to your posts, but everytime I try to start, I just cancel it. Sorry guys.

Hope everyone is well.

-Sean
 
Sean
DON'T hit the cancel button ! it's the stuff that bugs us and we sometimes think is unimportant that makes the difference, we need to deal with that just as much as the big issues. So post it - whatever it is, we're here to help if we can.

Dave
 
" I want you to always remember this....... In life it is never, ever, ever too late to change. Remember that ... hold on to that. At the bleakest of moments history has been made. Sometimes it's only at our darkest moments that we can see the light. There is always hope in life because there is always GOD."
 
Sean,

I can relate. With the returning memories of the first summer with my first perp (now three) that were blocked out, I have found it hard to post. Whether it was a new post or a reply. I have began several posts that were never completed. Some have made it on the board, but it took a lot to write them. It has been harder to hit the "Add Reply" or "Add New Topic" buttton than the "Back" button and the red X.

I hope things are getting better,
Bill

Ok, time to hit the "Add Reply" button, I can do it.
 
Sean - are you in a negative place, or are you in some sort of limbo. I am now coming to terms with things, and experiencing so much silence in my head thatI've never known before...I sometimes think about not thinking...(that sounds a bit crazy when I read it back)????

When my head is silent, I find it very difficult to post... I'm still thinking about (and supporting) everyone here even if I don't know how to respond at the time.

As for cancelling posts, I agree with Dave...I recently started a topic where I thanked everyone that had supported me since I arrived here (remember)...lot's of people were surprised that they had helped me.

We all help each other and believe in each other ...remember that...Rik ....2004 is a good year!
 
STRAP YOUR NIKES' ON..

WHEN IN DOUBT..

WORK OUT.....

BEST..............MIKE
 
If it makes you feel any better Sean, I keep finding myself doing the same things. I'll find that I start to respond to a post, and realize I'm not saying anything new or helpful or relevent so I just hit the cancel button instead.

Eric
 
Sean, I have not been here much recently either, and am still quite low. I think everyone here understands how we can get sometime. I think we will always be excused from here at times to deal with ourselves and our lives. I hope that you can remain safe, even when you are feeling low. I wish you well.

Leosha
 
Sean,

Wow, I wish I had seen your post and this thread sooner! I do the same thing, and have just started making a serious effort to post more.

I think Dave is right.
it's the stuff that bugs us and we sometimes think is unimportant that makes the difference
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Glad to see your post. More than I really know how to say right now.

Thanks,

Joe
 
Wow, replying to myself. Wonder what my T would say? :D

Actually, I'm posting again to share some thoughts I had about this thread when replying to a PM from Sean.

I had been shying away from posting. In essence, I cut myself off from a great source of support and understanding. It came back to bite me last week when I returned to a very old, very dysfunctional behavior.

But I'm a new man, now! :D Yeah, right. I'm a little chatised and hopefully a little wiser about just how important it is to keep my healthy ties to healthy resources wide open.

In reality, I don't know if I would have been able to accept the wisdom in your post when you first put it online. I think maybe I needed to "fall" to see how dangerous a course I was setting.

There's so much to learn. Sometimes it's "apparently simpler" to do what I've always done, just because that seems to take less effort. In fact, I put a lot of effort into the wrong behaviors, unhealthy escapes and the like.

I'm trying to change headings against the momentum of a lifetime spent charging full speed away from "the real world" where humans live and connect to one another. I need to remember that every small change I can make can help, and sometimes it's ok to stop pushing long enough to take a new sighting.

I hope that makes some kind of sense. It seems like a lot of nautical references for someone who swims with the speed, grace, and agility of a rock! :D (Oooh, breaking news! Maybe it's my starship Enterprise and not a boat at all! I am an established space cadet, after all!)

Thanks,

Joe
 
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