Out of exile
Yes, watch out people. I am back. Ha ha. Actually, I think I am moderately (not at all completely) sane again. Have stopped doing the negative things I was doing for several weeks ('pickling myself' with alcohol, self harm, pushing away people I love so much) a couple days ago. I feel mostly good. Still shaky some, and nervous about the report filed a while ago, but realizing that no, I can not 'take it back' like I was wanting to the next day. And, as another friend has also spoken up some, it is not just me they will be looking at, and they are asking things of other people. Was going to come here and start responding for first time in like, forever, (except on the 'Nao' thing), but I think I am going to do another challenge of myself right now. As I'm feeling quite sore and hard to move, I think I am actually going to try the hot tub right now (People here who know me well know how afraid of water I am). So will probably return later and try to catch up with friends, strangers, and indeed, 'brothers' here. Thank you very much for those who have been in contact with me, I am trying to catch up with mails and PM also. For the newer members here, welcome, and trust me, there are so many generous and good heart people here who truly and honestly care about others. Wishing you all well,
leosha
leosha
