on desire and logic

[markgreyblue]

i have come to be much more aware lately of how powerful my abilities are -

My ability to reach a goal is strong -

but my desire is strong too - too strong at times

it has not been tempered by something

my personal logic ...a logic...

i say "a logic" because it is the logic which dictates - that if i want something - I will do - need to do- X to get it -

but a logic for me too is that i cannot afford most of what i want - so rather deny the wanting -
i am adding a thought to my survival - a priniciple of
- i want X - will X at this point and time - add to my survival -
If the item is way out of my own strong
surviving position then I would choose to say I will wait - all does not need to be done at once -
if it is a mild indulgence that has no detraction
in a compass of acceptability for basic survival -
then I would go for it -
this would lead to and understanding of what would be important to me as well - a learning of the self referencing acceptability standard -
my own term -

a hurtful choice or bad effecting - for me has been with myself - in the face of relationships -
I used to think ...I had to get married to the each guy who came my way - when honestly things are so pressure filled right now that all I want is just a fun playmate- and that is valid- it is what I want - and it is self preserving too!

anyone - ? this is really helping me --
hope this is useful or helpful

 

Mark,

Makes sense to me. Sounds like you are evaluating your priorities. Realizing what is realistic now and what can wait till the time is right.

And a playmate, imho, is not a bad thing. Because it can be consenual. That way, you will not have to attach so closely and realize it for what it really is.

Cool, my brother!

Marc

 

[yesac76]

You have some deep thought their, my brother.
Playmates are (probably) fun. Just remember to be safe!!!! (Lecture over)
It is great you are prioritizing. Right now, my education is #1 on my list.
Casey

 

[markgreyblue]

thanks brothers!