Of monsters and men and sleep.

[carperson]

Foremost, I would like to say that I really hope this is the form to place this in. I dislike new things and almost posted it in "family and friends".

PS. I have only gotten 4 hours of sleep in the last 3 days or so. Sorry if it's a bad post.

My brother moved out and he has not moved back. It's driving me crazy. I have not had a full nights sleep sense he left. It's gotten to the point where I practically am hallucinating or I can't tell what's going on. I hate it. I love sleep, but every time I try I am both acutely aware that I am all alone and yet I feel as if my father/boogy man is in the house with me. I can hear breathing and water and movement and I have to stay awake to convince myself that nothing is there. It does not matter where I am in the house, it's all the same

I have a hard time convincing myself that there is no monster or demon or other such nonsense in my home. I did not have this issue before he left, not sense I was a child. I realize that it is foolish but I think I replaced the image of my father with that of the boogyman and now I can not sleep. I need sleep and I want to sleep badly.

Do any of you know tricks for getting to sleep or getting over feelings of not being alone or fictional sounds?

 

[Rustam]

It sounds severe and difficult, I am afraid I don't have much in the way of tips. I don't have a big issue with getting enough sleep now but in the past if it went for two or three days without sleep I would go a bit crazy so I would go to my doctor and get something to knock me out. That gives enough relief to function again. Physical exercise or heavy gardening during the day helped me, it sort of grounds me in the present. It sounds like you need some help right now, the thread started by Jude called Nightmares might give you some ideas too.
Sorry I have so little to offer, hope it feels better soon.