one of the things i will say is that i think my abuser gave me is this crazy unhealthy need to face and concure my fears which there are not many left,if i can work past this my most shameful one,but it has got me in to places that normal person might have died, like malls, parties, bars,other peoples cars, (yes) a relationship,this fourm, and other bullshit,that make records and take photos of you,(wow) you say, it gets more then that but i might take up to much memory, thoughts like these delet my time with pain,im not alone with that, see you on the downside,