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[markgreyblue]

i don't really write well -
unless - i force it -

i am not going to put that kind of abuse on myself - at this occassion -

i hope to be understood - but if i am not that is ok -

that is sort of the message anyway -

no more breakdowns - no more spending
that i don't want to suffer (work) for -

the money i have - and will spend - will be for things - i am willing to fight for -

not incidentals that i would rather flush down the toilet -

no more - gotta have that -

why suffer for some sacrifice that isn't mine -

??

now that's a ball of confusion -

but - i don't care to work so hard anymore -
i want to walk gently down the street

there are examples out there - of wonderful self acceptance - and gentle care -

it might take a close call - to have it all

finally hit home -

mgb

 

[roadrunner]

Mark,

What you're rejecting is of course the famous "retail therapy", the temptation to buy lots of unnecessary and often trivial things because they give us something to do (compare, select and buy) and something positive to look forward to (arrival of the goods).

Rejecting this is really difficult, and so often we don't even realize we are doing it until we look at the absurd collection of stuff coming into the house! I'm glad you nailed and confronted this one. It gets expensive doesn't it?!

Much love,
Larry