It's amazing how so many stories here are just like mine, I never thought it was possible.
Please hear this as gently as I can say it:It is my fault. I should have said no. I didn't. I allowed it. I permitted it. There was no force upon me. I just let it happen. I pretended to be asleep. I am at fault.
I can relate to that man. I can't tell you how many opportunities I could have had to tell my parents. But I never did. I didn't think they would believe me. Or that my abuser would lie and make my life worse.It is my fault. I should have said no. I didn't. I allowed it. I permitted it. There was no force upon me. I just let it happen. I pretended to be asleep. I am at fault.
Do not be fooled by Oprah, she is a serial abuser and she has been to Epstein Island. She had Donald Trump on her show and even said he should run for president, now that he is president she wants him out because Trump is exposing the pedophiles. You want the pedophiles to flourish again vote for Biden who has a island close to Epsteins island.Hey Healing Light
You came to the right place. You have enough resources and other people to help you sort out things. I was in the game my whole childhood, went into the USAF in '69. During leave I went back to papasan and did some work for him. I came out active duty in '72 and got my discharge in '75. I was in the game till 24. I looked like I was 16. I didn't have a hair on my face till maybe 24 so I had work even after active duty ended. When I crashed in January 4, 2011 I started drinking etc. A friend of mine (my only friend) got me to watch 2 episodes of the Oprah show with the audience of 200 guys who were abused as kids. From there I found the resources to come here, that was June 11, 2011. I was also scared to open my mouth about what I was involved in. At the beginning I didn't want to open up to what I did. Slowly I opened up. MS was a lifesaver for me. I go to two therapists every week. I think that if I didn't have a shrink for meds and the a therapist to talk to I wouldn't be here. And it was here that started on my way for help. I still think that I have a long way to go but I'm here and I'm breathing. The comradery here is to help one another.
You came to the right place. It's great to meet you.
This wasn't just to keep you in line it was for their pleasure and I'm sure they made money selling them to others. That goes for 8 & 16mm movie film. 8mm was more home movies which also could be sold but photogs used 16mm which was more professional for business. I would say that taking 16mm of you was most probably sold. I started having my photos taken with my boyfriend when we were 8 by his sister who was 16. A lot of those photos ended up in boy magazines in the early '60s. They were still legal to sell at newsstands. My pics do pop up on the internet from time to time and that's with simple google searches without looking on porn sites.My abuser had a Polaroid camera and a lot of film. He took photos of me in every imaginable pose and with his friends and the older guys. He used them to keep me in line and in fear of everyone knowing I was a faggot, that was a term you did not want to be called back then.
I haven't heard that about Oprah that but it was my friend that got me to watch the two episodes of the Oprah show about 200 abused men as children that got me here to MS back in June of 2011. And that started me on my journey. My political beliefs seem to resemble yours but I think that politics should be brought up on the threads for political discussions. This thread is about how we as kids were abused via the media.Do not be fooled...
Not just her but most of Hollywood, there will probably be none left when it is cleaned up. Even Tom Hanks is in the spotlight in a major way. The elites there are big consumers of all things children.Hey wvsurvivor,
I haven't heard that about Oprah that but it was my friend that got me to watch the two episodes of the Oprah show about 200 abused men as children that got me here to MS back in June of 2011. And that started me on my journey. My political beliefs seem to resemble yours but I think that politics should be brought up on the threads for political discussions. This thread is about how we as kids were abused via the media.
Sarcasm. I would be pissed if I found out it was out there from back then.Hey wvsurvivor,
What I'm really sorry about is the anger that was ingrained in you and ran you ragged throughout your life. I think that's one of the saddest parts. The other is never having a real safe relationship. It was what it did to you the brings tears to my eyes. In 1975 I ran away from that life. I ran away from everything I knew. And moved to a place to start my life over. I never had friends because I didn't want my story to get out. Nobody knew anything about me before 1975. I'm a gay man but I married a woman because that's what men did in the '70s. She was a 1st grade teacher that came out of seminary only a year before. I was also pushed into it but I never regretted it. I was lonely all the years but I couldn't let my story out. That all came crashing down on me on January 4, 2011....I was 14 closer to the church. It was obvious something happened as I had issues with anger and would fight an adult man that pissed me off and hurt him.
Were you put into a position to be in 16mm movies? That's sick.I know that if we hadn't moved I would have been taken somewhere else and immortalized in film forever.