not really sure what i am doing - in this post but...

[markgreyblue]

ok - i am here -

listening to some very soft - very lovely - non jarring music -

english country dances of the 1700's

it's really great - to me -

but it's odd -

it's seems until a moment ago - i was struggling -

struggling in a sense to safely be conscious?

ok that may sound odd -

but it's like - i almost exist - in a state of constant apology or humility and being -
or protuding -

or asking -

the constanty apology - and looking to be a seemless fixture -that is non offending -

oh dear - this is so much an outshoot of the post before -

it's like now where do i begin - and the outside world starts = and how to i keep a safe

in that way -

-ugg -

m

 

[John Oarc]

I find it hard to find the balance between humility and confidence. I think fear is the key, it kills the spirit.

 

[roadrunner]

Mark,

I think I may be saying the same thing as John when I suggest that for me the key lies in learning how to cope with feelings, how to address what they are saying to us without accepting these messages as truth.

Much love,
Larry

 

[Morning Star]

I remember all those years of acting out when I sought attention from my preps, while fearing them all the while.

The cure came with me allowing myself, all the ATTENTION I needed, but as a safe and loving presence - my own.