Not my best year!!!
Well tonight did not go as I had hoped. I think my wife is too far gone. I guess I will soon begin to see life as a single again. She wants to be legally seperated and said that I deserve to be with someone who wants to be with me as much. What a month...trigger flashbacks and nothing but my abuser in my dreams... my wife wants nothing to do with me and looks like I am headed for divorce, and all this just before I turn 40. I do feel better about me and I just hope all this negativity doesn't pull me down. I never thought I would be someone who is divorced, but now it is looking me dead in the face. When life throws you for a loop, it doesn't mess around!!!