Not in crisis

Not in crisis
C

cog

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I am not in crisis, so please don't go whacko, but I am depressed.

I remembered hearing something somewhere, that portrays how I feel inside. It describes for me the overwhelming personal stuggle I endure. It is something that describes how I feel in only 3 words. It is amazing how these three words seem to speak volumes to me. I had to search to find the source. Here it is:


"... I Die Daily"

-New Testament: First Corinthians, Chapter 15, verse 31.


To me, this is poetic.
 
cog, here is another saying, "but with the dawn rejoiciing--it is from a psalm but I don't remember which one.

Let's hope you can come to the daqy when you can say, I live daily--fresh and fully.

Bob
 
sorry man didnt mean to go whacko on you. you jsut scared me cuz you wouldnt say much. please let me know if there is anything i can do to help ok?
 
Al,
I guess after talking to you in chat and posting what I did I can see how you could come up with that conclusion.
But please believe me, that this post has nothing to do with you, or the chat we had. I honestly wasn't thinking about what you had said to me in chat. So, take a breather. It's ok. This is just a theme that I have been dealing with and I wanted to express it. I didn't want to alarm anyone by talking about dying. That is why I prefaced what I said with it.
To say anymore, would take aware from those three words.

P.S. I am grateful for your hand of friendship. Thank you for caring.
 
Please let me say, that u are not alone....

peace

Orodo
 
Guys - I felt like that so very often [I die daily...]...even slid so far that I thought about ending it all. BUT I began taking Prozac and found whenever I started "sliding down that greased flagpole of life toward the dark cloud of depression", :( it felt like a hand grabbed me (Prozac) and no matter what I couldn't slide any further. :) After a while, the depression would pass (sometimes it took 'til morning when I woke up).
I also began to work on my thinking by including short phrases I learned. Such as:

I like everyone - some when they come and some when they go! The first 3 words lifted the positive and gave positive direction to my thinking.

Tell me what you CAN do not what you CAN'T! Whatever I was worried or anxious about that I had no control over, I swept away and focused instead on what I could do then and there. Then - I started doing it. Depression zaps motivation, strength and direction. The more I could accomplish something, I gained a bit of strength.

The Serenity Prayer and it's wisdom reminded me to know, identify and apply the courage to change the things I could.

It was easier for me to slide down than to stop in order to climb up!! Surviving and healing isn't easy. I'm still climbing!! Hope it helped!! ;)

Howard
 
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