Not feeling endangered seeing romantic affection
Sicsevens
Registrant
I was coming home this evening, public transport. While I was standing around for the final leg of the journey, I saw a couple. There was a lady, kind of sitting on her partner’s leg; kissing, stroking neck, hand on inner-thigh, very close in.
Normally this would immediately make me freak out inside, and feel endangered. This level of intimacy has always been a trigger. But this time, I was just uncomfortable, and turned to wait a little distance away. No messing me up. Just not really liking it, slight tight chest, a little unsettled, but nothing blaring. No big alarm bells. No feeling as if I could be abused at any moment. No time-ruining ammount of stress/anxiety or vivid abuse thoughts.
I went on to get on home with nothing stand-out to say. My focusses were much more on random frustrating things that come with being out in the night, and being happy finally going home.
Normally this would immediately make me freak out inside, and feel endangered. This level of intimacy has always been a trigger. But this time, I was just uncomfortable, and turned to wait a little distance away. No messing me up. Just not really liking it, slight tight chest, a little unsettled, but nothing blaring. No big alarm bells. No feeling as if I could be abused at any moment. No time-ruining ammount of stress/anxiety or vivid abuse thoughts.
I went on to get on home with nothing stand-out to say. My focusses were much more on random frustrating things that come with being out in the night, and being happy finally going home.