Hi...my name is Madison. The first time I was sexualized I was quite young. I do not remember any negative emotions. Just confusion. Men have always been drawn to me. Drawn to taking me sexually. I learned that I was quite good at pleasing them, and this pleased me. So I had figured out how to turn the tables on these men. Family members first, then teachers (who were also priests that we had to call Master; Church of England all boys bording school). I had found a way to enjoy it, while making them think I was "scared". Afterwards...everytime...everytime...afterwards their guilt and remorse was very apparent. So, whilst they thought I was a powerless, helpless boy, it was I who was taking their power. A kind of emotional and physical Tai Chi.