No More Secrets from Andy!
Hi Guys!
(Including Rocky Mt. Joe, Peter, Puppy, SophiesDad, Shy Bear, Danny, Mikey, and Everyone Else!)
Let me tell you the good news. After a really bad day yesterday (flashbacks, Michael Jackson verdict, and a few other things along those lines), I sat Andy down and told him all my secrets. So he knows all about the sexual abuse by my brother (at least all that I know). And now he knows the truth about the married guy, the theatre director who molested me. And I told him about the coworker who coerced me into oral sex in the railway tunnel. (At the time that happened, by the way, I was with my first partner of seven years and I was so humiliated, I never told him! So this is a big deal telling Andy about that.) Also, Andy knows now about the attempted date rape situation many years ago.
Wow! What a relief it is!!!
Today I'm going to my PTSD therapy group. I still don't feel like sharing my secrets with them. Not in detail, that is. Instead I've decided only to share details with Andy or other male survivors. I don't know if this makes sense or not. But it's like I couldn't control what happened to me then--but I can take back a little bit of control now by deciding who I tell. Does that make sense?
But the main thing is Andy knows all. Yippee! Isn't that something?
Take care, guys!
Jasper
(Including Rocky Mt. Joe, Peter, Puppy, SophiesDad, Shy Bear, Danny, Mikey, and Everyone Else!)
Let me tell you the good news. After a really bad day yesterday (flashbacks, Michael Jackson verdict, and a few other things along those lines), I sat Andy down and told him all my secrets. So he knows all about the sexual abuse by my brother (at least all that I know). And now he knows the truth about the married guy, the theatre director who molested me. And I told him about the coworker who coerced me into oral sex in the railway tunnel. (At the time that happened, by the way, I was with my first partner of seven years and I was so humiliated, I never told him! So this is a big deal telling Andy about that.) Also, Andy knows now about the attempted date rape situation many years ago.
Wow! What a relief it is!!!
Today I'm going to my PTSD therapy group. I still don't feel like sharing my secrets with them. Not in detail, that is. Instead I've decided only to share details with Andy or other male survivors. I don't know if this makes sense or not. But it's like I couldn't control what happened to me then--but I can take back a little bit of control now by deciding who I tell. Does that make sense?
But the main thing is Andy knows all. Yippee! Isn't that something?
Take care, guys!
Jasper
