nno feling ppain
The ddocrtor, he ttalk to me littlee bit beffore I have surgryy on monday. He ttel me he see ssometing on the ppicture, ssomethign eelse he need ttake out of mme at ssame time. Then he assk me how I brreak the bone tthere. It is bbone that kkep the hip bonens toggethr. And I ddon't know wwhat he mean, tthat I never breeak nothing there. And he ssay, yes yyou do, it is on xrray, and he sshow me on picture. I ccan see it, bbut still, I ddon't know ssomething happen tthere. We assk him, if it breeak there, I ccould not wwalk, rrihgt? And hhe tell me nno, tthat how it bbreak, I wwould still been able tto move ok, bbut probably wwould hurt to mmuch to do it. Therre never was ppain. I tthink, I been tthinking on it, aand I remember I thinkk when it must haave happen, aand who ccause it, wwhat cause it. But nenvver tthere was pain. And I ffel I am crazzy, I am less tthen person. Peopple feel pain. Annimals even ffel pain. I did nnot feel itt. Notthing that hhapen. Didd not feel wwhen tthey bbreak me. Whhat that makes me? I hahve the surggry ttwo days ago, still nnot feeling iit. i ffel nothing wwhere they ccut at me. I wwas afraid thtey cut off parrt of my body, beccause I not ffel it. But nno pain. I kknow that ssome peole are tthinking it is llucky to not ffell tthat. Bbut I nnot feling luucky I aam feeling sscared and ssad tthat too much is away ffrom me to benormal aggain. Normmal people ffel more tthen ffear and ppanick. Nnormal peopolel feel hapy, and ssad and pain. I feel sccared. I ffel ssad, maybe. I ddo cry nnow. BBut why I amm not humman no mmore? 