Night terrors (huge trigger warning)
pedropedro
Registrant
I don't know where to start. Almost a month ago my therapist told me he was moving to another state and I have to wait still another week to see a new one. I've been having night terrors every night. A lot of them have related to shame about feeling sexual desire, involving my penis falling off in my hand while masturbating. Another was when I saw a commercial (in my dream) advertising a device women could use to castrate men, and it was demonstrated on a drugged unconscious live man. Another was that a woman could see the outline of my genitals in my pants while I was at a convenience store and was offended and called the police, who then came and emasculated me for the crime of having a penis.
A close friend and foster brother had hernia surgery on his groin muscle recently and I had panic dreams that a frustrated misandrist nurse cut off his penis. One of the guys who supports me and protected me in other nightmares was now "dickless" himself!
The most recent nightmare was that I met a woman and began to date her. We were in her bedroom one night about to have sex for the first time. She saw my penis and said she "wasn't going to need that" and cut it off with a pair of scissors and then suffocated me while she forced me to perform oral sex on her. I'm afraid to sleep tonight honestly.
A close friend and foster brother had hernia surgery on his groin muscle recently and I had panic dreams that a frustrated misandrist nurse cut off his penis. One of the guys who supports me and protected me in other nightmares was now "dickless" himself!
The most recent nightmare was that I met a woman and began to date her. We were in her bedroom one night about to have sex for the first time. She saw my penis and said she "wasn't going to need that" and cut it off with a pair of scissors and then suffocated me while she forced me to perform oral sex on her. I'm afraid to sleep tonight honestly.