Welcome,
I cannot say just being here will improve your life. However, we are all here to help you as you make your journey to healing. The road is rough and full of twists and turns, but this is a place to turn to for moral support.
I am truly sorry you are in need of this place, but I can say from personal experience that the men here are a wonderful help. I know how difficult it is to tell strnagers your truth, but it is all a part of healing. Things will happen that make you question why you are trying to heal a wound so old, but the only way to heal is to go back and confront your demons.
We are always here for you, day or night. Never be afraid to ask us for help or advice. Many of us have been there/done that and will be glad to offer whatever help we can along the way. Again, welcome here, and I pray your path to healing is a short one!
Casey