New Memory, big YUCK **Triggering**
Rick S.
Registrant
I was thinking back to mother incesting me in the bathtub together,
Got a new memory/flashback of her fondling my genitals while kneeling in missionary position over her in the tub, both naked. She was toying with my genitals. What a sick thing to do. Felt good too, which makes it even worse since I'm left with a shameful feeling that I wanted the abuse, NOT SO.
Just needed to SAY it out loud. I've had other flashbacks about mother's sexual abuse of me. This is a new one, just another piece of the puzzle.
Still don't have a new therapist, searching for one.
Rick
Got a new memory/flashback of her fondling my genitals while kneeling in missionary position over her in the tub, both naked. She was toying with my genitals. What a sick thing to do. Felt good too, which makes it even worse since I'm left with a shameful feeling that I wanted the abuse, NOT SO.
Just needed to SAY it out loud. I've had other flashbacks about mother's sexual abuse of me. This is a new one, just another piece of the puzzle.
Still don't have a new therapist, searching for one.
Rick