I was abused by my older brother from about 2 years old until I was nearly 12. Then, every year when we would go on vacation, my parents would make it a point to visit my brother's house for up to a week of our vacation. This went on until I stood up to my dad when I was about 15. I ran away and when my dad found me he beat me up, threw me in his car and drove in the desert like a maniac. How he was acting/driving was scaring me. When he stopped the car he had a nervous breakdown/panic attack and passed out. I thought he had a heart attack, so I cried out to God and told him if he saved my dad I'll go wherever he wants. My parents found out what had been happening because my best friend/neighbor told his parents what my brother had been doing to the both of us. My brother was 18 when the police intervened, but my parents paid $20,000+ to a lawyer to make it go away. The excuse was that his name is the same as my dad's. As soon as my brother moved out, my parents moved me into my brother's bedroom where a huge portion of the abuse took place. My parents still live in the same house and the family of the neighbor kid finally moved about 4-5 years ago. I am now 41 years old and have been facing this battle with therapy for about 5-6 years now. I am now entering a portion of therapy that is extremely difficult, but I know that it will be the most helpful. It is called prolonged exposure therapy. I just want to finally slay this giant and actually become who I am supposed to be and not all of the things that it has made me.