New Here....Thanks

New Here....Thanks

The Seeker

Registrant
Well, I decided to stop lurking and inch out into the light. I have been around for a few months...watching and reading. I know it has been said a million times here, but I am glad I am not alone. You always feel like the only one out there. It is great the way you guys support each other. Where else does one go to have these type of conversations, except the shrink. It's funny how something so long ago imprints itself on your life and pushes you in different directions like a strong undercurrent that you just can't swim away from. At least I discovered I can float. :) Your stories make me cry, but my own almost never does. It's funny how easy it is to feel bad for others, and not yourself. I used to think I got off easy because I never got hit that much. I was wrong. There is no such thing as getting off easy. I march on toward self-discovery. I fight the fight that I couldn't back then. I just wanted to say thanks for being here. It matters.
 
Thanks. It is sorta scary and sorta freeing to be doing this. You'll all be shocked to know that I never talk about it.
 
Hello Seeker,

I am real new here also and I share your feeling about this all being a little scary and yet freeing. I have had trust issues that make it hard to talk about these issues and I have found that I have had this "you've got to do this on your own" thing in me from childhood. I have had dependency problems also so for me it's a balance of working with myself and seeking assistance.

Take good care,
Teft
 
I welcome you here, I am newer here too. It - not, that any person leaves so easy. There is a big depth of from what we heal. There is a lot of pain, and that from one person no more than it is another. Each of us, we have our own to have, and we shall deal with it our own ways. I think some people as it - they cost(stand) (appear) before things, apparently, that it more easy for them. But for each of us, there is no comparison with others. All of us have need(requirement) to be here. It never easy. I am most pleased to meet you.

VN
 
Thanks guys. I am trying very hard. It is up and down. I am discovering more about myself though. I am getting stronger everyday. I have faith that I will overcome the damage.
 
Welcome Seeker, andthe same to all the other, newer guys. Soccer Kid is correct when he says that some of us speak with greater ease about our abuse. It's becuase we've been doing it fow awhile. The more it comes out, the easier it is to deal with, the less intense the pain.

When you're ready, let it out. I'll bet you find yourself crying them for you, for the boy you were who was hurt. If you feel our pain, certainly you'll, eventually, allow yourself to feel your own and grieve for the boy who wasn't protected. All in time though, you'll know when you're ready.

Anyway, glad you found this place, sorry you need it. But the guys here are awesome, really unbelievable people who have survived some of the most horrific thinkgs, no one should have to go through it. But we did and there is better waiting. I wish you peace in your heart and soul as you work though your heaking. Peace - John
 
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