Eve
you're stronger than you ever believe.
What you've both been through is so intense and hard, but I believe it's the hardest part.
It might not be "all downhill" from here, but you've both learned so much - so quick - that you're already better equipped to deal the hard work that's surely coming.
Don't ever be frightened of it, but respect it.
Hard work can take it's toll, and partners can have a worse time than survivors. Think seriously about therapy for yourself, or find someone you can share and unload your problems with. But be careful about who you choose, discretion and silence is essential, so if you have a truly trusted friend or family member use them. But unload some of your feelings - not his.
Your wellbeing is essential, he's not going to heal as quickly on his own as he is with your support.
There's some great support here amongst the partners and friends on this forum, don't be afraid of wearing us down or asking the wrong thing.
What you're about to do is very scary, but so rewarding. Sometimes you'll wonder why you bother, other times he'll leave you speechless.
Take care of number one - YOURSELF !
Dave