Sorry Jaysen I had to work today, otherwise I would have talked to you.
It's not pointless, because when you start to slope downhill on this road to recovery, you're going to be a great asset in someone else's life. That is not to imply that you're not already, I merely mean to say that once your mind is not so weighed down by all this shit, you can focus more on the good things in your life.
You have learned quite a bit about yourself since you've first come here have you not? Do you not see ANY progress? I thought you were feeling better lately, I'm sorry if I was mistaken.