My thoughts!
reality2k4
Registrant
Putting lives back together is no easy thing to do.
We try everything to do it within our own minds and who we let into our lives, or not let in as we choose.
I guess we should expect a choice to be who we are, and not be manipulated by outside indifferences whether intended or implied.
I know that I can try and just work within my own mind when I am hurting, but it never works.
It never works because time and time again it is manipulated by others, it always was, it is how I grew to know about life and it sucks.
It just makes me beat myself up on the inside, it puts everything on the inside because it has nowhere to go.
When I was a kid I could not be good even if I tried and tried, and really he did so much try, but he thought!
Nobody could really understand him, so he thought of himself as such a loser through times in his life when he needed to build confidence.
It is so easy to break that confidence, use the right key and you are in there, mess it all up and he has to start again from scratch.
I can so much lose confidence in life especially when I start blaming abuse on myself, and just beat myself up.
I just guess I try to keep the kid from more hurt upon hurt, but it hurtles him back to times where he should not be, not without support.
I know I was the little kid who did everything from cooking to looking after my siblings even my older brother who could not cook.
I thought then, why did he not stand on his own feet and learn to cook!
Nah, he had me do it all for him so why should he.
I was a little man, not a boy in the house.
Every little thing got blamed on me, no matter what.
I cannot blame my parents, it is all they really knew to do.
Modern parents would just do the same thing as equally they do not know how tho handle it.
How could they ever be expected to do that!
If professionals cannot do it, then why should any parent know how to do it?
I get mad at thinking that I never became a dad, but I guess it was his choice to not bring children into this world.
I did it because I could not stand the thought of losing a child, or things happening that happen to him.
Would I have been able to handle a situation happening to a child of mine is highly doubtful, so he chose, not from his choice, but what he grew to know.
ste
PS, how many guys thought they would have loved to have kids, and bring them up in a safe environment?
We try everything to do it within our own minds and who we let into our lives, or not let in as we choose.
I guess we should expect a choice to be who we are, and not be manipulated by outside indifferences whether intended or implied.
I know that I can try and just work within my own mind when I am hurting, but it never works.
It never works because time and time again it is manipulated by others, it always was, it is how I grew to know about life and it sucks.
It just makes me beat myself up on the inside, it puts everything on the inside because it has nowhere to go.
When I was a kid I could not be good even if I tried and tried, and really he did so much try, but he thought!
Nobody could really understand him, so he thought of himself as such a loser through times in his life when he needed to build confidence.
It is so easy to break that confidence, use the right key and you are in there, mess it all up and he has to start again from scratch.
I can so much lose confidence in life especially when I start blaming abuse on myself, and just beat myself up.
I just guess I try to keep the kid from more hurt upon hurt, but it hurtles him back to times where he should not be, not without support.
I know I was the little kid who did everything from cooking to looking after my siblings even my older brother who could not cook.
I thought then, why did he not stand on his own feet and learn to cook!
Nah, he had me do it all for him so why should he.
I was a little man, not a boy in the house.
Every little thing got blamed on me, no matter what.
I cannot blame my parents, it is all they really knew to do.
Modern parents would just do the same thing as equally they do not know how tho handle it.
How could they ever be expected to do that!
If professionals cannot do it, then why should any parent know how to do it?
I get mad at thinking that I never became a dad, but I guess it was his choice to not bring children into this world.
I did it because I could not stand the thought of losing a child, or things happening that happen to him.
Would I have been able to handle a situation happening to a child of mine is highly doubtful, so he chose, not from his choice, but what he grew to know.
ste
PS, how many guys thought they would have loved to have kids, and bring them up in a safe environment?