Sounds awesome, brother. Well done. I know I could never do that.Not sure where to put this, so I will add it here, since it is a "victory" of sorts...
I had a very interesting time at my church picnic yesterday afternoon.
first major "social event" since my PTSD-Therapy relieved me of my hyper-vigilance.
my friend, who knows my stuff, noticed right away. I did, too.
crowds would normally freak me out, so I would often find something to distract me (find something to do, to help, so I would not feel so overwhelmed)
This time, I was SOCIABLE! Talking to people, enjoying the company of others.
it was like I was "Drunk-me" - when I would drink heavily, the hyper-vigilance turned off.
so weird - like when they talk about the "new post-CSA *Thriver-you*" -- I think he has finally started appearing!!
I’m sorry...I updated my Signature Line today....
"Dog" has been added.
Had another PTSD-T Session today. Trying to work on why I still have the BDSM Sexual Fantasies that mirror the abuse. Apparently I have another "part" - name: "Keeper of the Trauma" - He has been harboring all of the truths related to the physical trauma (including sexual trauma) that we endured during the trafficking abuses. "Dog" became the power animal to help him work through and release the pain.
Without that piece (the Trauma Pain), the trauma was basically playing over and over in my mind, as if a piece was missing -- looking for that missing piece to get completion.
Today we were able to allow TraumaKeeper to work through the pain and release it. The process brought up and out a lot of memories of the pain we endured. brought them all to mind. Hard to relive, but they went quickly.
He is still in the same "status" as "7" - not yet graduated.
After the "release," 7, TK and I had a 3-way "group hug" - it was nice. Seems 7 has known about TK's existence, but did not disclose the information until today.