My therapist is concerned for my safety
My therapist and i spoke by phone today after the things from last night. She did tell me in our in-person session yesterday that the email my partner sent had he very concerned for herself and it is concerning how he is behaving. So today she spoke to her therapist who she turns to at times dealing to get opinions on some of her cases and situations. So today she informed her of the email and the background on things and how things are going between him and I.
So her therapist feels the same way as my T. That the things he has said, how he is still playing every angle and that “we cannot breakup.” How he is wanting to meet with me face to face, saying he is going to come the camper this weekend even though I had told him not to multiple times. I am currently in a hotel right now and guess will be longer as i am not going to the camper this weekend.
They both feel based on their experience this could head to something really bad like the mindset of him thinking “If I can’t hang have Stephen no will.”. What is the worst part is that my gut has told me not to meet with him face to face. Even today I went to the house this morning while he was at work to mow the yard. I had messaged him that he did not sign the paperwork for the car or leave me the title. He said he will be home at 11:30 and sign it then and also talk. I felt this uneasiness so i rushed to mow got 80% done so i had time to shower and leave before 11. He then asked if i was going to come back i told him yes to get the cars paperwork but i was meeting a co-worker for lunch so it would be in the afternoon. He then said I will meet you there. I told him again I do not want to meet face to face at this time.
I did not need to hear what my T said and giving my gut has kept me from meeting with him scares me. God I just want to have things to just be done. Today he did say he say we need to meet to discuss separating things.
I just read his last text to me after lunch he said for the first time he acknowledged it was done. That we need to meet to discuss the belongings, how to separate things. He also wrote that he hopes we can remain friends to never hear from me again. I just inside cant and don’t want to believe he would do anything physically harmful. The last text was the first one that was a glimmer of positive. But is it real or a game?
Back to fucking crying. My Psyc PA just prescribed me Temazepam to help me get some sleep. Tired of drugs tired the the ups and downs. I am telling myself in the end it will all be ok and better for me.
So her therapist feels the same way as my T. That the things he has said, how he is still playing every angle and that “we cannot breakup.” How he is wanting to meet with me face to face, saying he is going to come the camper this weekend even though I had told him not to multiple times. I am currently in a hotel right now and guess will be longer as i am not going to the camper this weekend.
They both feel based on their experience this could head to something really bad like the mindset of him thinking “If I can’t hang have Stephen no will.”. What is the worst part is that my gut has told me not to meet with him face to face. Even today I went to the house this morning while he was at work to mow the yard. I had messaged him that he did not sign the paperwork for the car or leave me the title. He said he will be home at 11:30 and sign it then and also talk. I felt this uneasiness so i rushed to mow got 80% done so i had time to shower and leave before 11. He then asked if i was going to come back i told him yes to get the cars paperwork but i was meeting a co-worker for lunch so it would be in the afternoon. He then said I will meet you there. I told him again I do not want to meet face to face at this time.
I did not need to hear what my T said and giving my gut has kept me from meeting with him scares me. God I just want to have things to just be done. Today he did say he say we need to meet to discuss separating things.
I just read his last text to me after lunch he said for the first time he acknowledged it was done. That we need to meet to discuss the belongings, how to separate things. He also wrote that he hopes we can remain friends to never hear from me again. I just inside cant and don’t want to believe he would do anything physically harmful. The last text was the first one that was a glimmer of positive. But is it real or a game?
Back to fucking crying. My Psyc PA just prescribed me Temazepam to help me get some sleep. Tired of drugs tired the the ups and downs. I am telling myself in the end it will all be ok and better for me.
