My So-Called Father
Chuck:
My SA was from at least 2-11. For the last about 2 years I've been remembering them pretty much in reverse chronological order. Just in the last few days I recalled further instances of CSA by my father when I was maybe even younger.
This has involved flashbacks and clearer memories only in the last couple years. Before that it was undefined body & sensory memories, with occasional
fuzzy snapshots as far as pictures go.
It has taken 13 years & 4 T's to progress this far; only with my current T did the CSA start to come out. If you don't have a good T it's not the
cure-all but most people I know find it very helpful I know I have.
The important thing is to increase your trust in yourself and in what memories--body, sensory, clear, faded, whatever--you are having. Don't doubt the truth of your reality painful as it was becuz it can be better.
Chuck I say this as someone who almost totally dissociated & suppressed everything for 35 years after my last CSA event. Every picture, every feeling, every sense I had about my CSA seemed as tho it happened to someone I knew but not me.
That may have something to do with how little I knew myself; I didn't want to know myself. Now I want to, usually..."Know thyself"--simple but makes good sense.
Know yourself Chuck know your truth and know you can be in control now, with some help & support.
TC & TTYL
Victor
My SA was from at least 2-11. For the last about 2 years I've been remembering them pretty much in reverse chronological order. Just in the last few days I recalled further instances of CSA by my father when I was maybe even younger.
This has involved flashbacks and clearer memories only in the last couple years. Before that it was undefined body & sensory memories, with occasional
fuzzy snapshots as far as pictures go.
It has taken 13 years & 4 T's to progress this far; only with my current T did the CSA start to come out. If you don't have a good T it's not the
cure-all but most people I know find it very helpful I know I have.
The important thing is to increase your trust in yourself and in what memories--body, sensory, clear, faded, whatever--you are having. Don't doubt the truth of your reality painful as it was becuz it can be better.
Chuck I say this as someone who almost totally dissociated & suppressed everything for 35 years after my last CSA event. Every picture, every feeling, every sense I had about my CSA seemed as tho it happened to someone I knew but not me.
That may have something to do with how little I knew myself; I didn't want to know myself. Now I want to, usually..."Know thyself"--simple but makes good sense.
Know yourself Chuck know your truth and know you can be in control now, with some help & support.
TC & TTYL
Victor