My sister (Is some triggers)
Hello, I have the human translater tonight, so I will maybe not say that I have four eyes or some such thing.
My sister, she is 3 and half years older of me, she is visiting right now. We have had a very pleasant visit, I see her for few days few months ago, but she never have come here to visit before.
I wonder always, do she know of what our mother do? I know that she is quite distant from our father, and do not like him for how violent always he is with us. But I wonder if she know of our mother, what she do, and do she see it is wrong? She share room with me, until we both leave home, I know she most know of it happen. But never we talk of it.
I say something to her today, it is just off the hand comment, of something to do with something few years ago, a large fight of me and my father. And I ask her, Raisa, do you know what it was about? Because I can tell you. She say what is it. And I tell her what it is of, that he hate me because of my mother, say I am whore, something I do not want say here right now, but of something with her, and honest, I do think he try to kill me. And she look at me and say, well, I think that make more sense then what you tell everyone happen. Because of what happen, and there is police involved of it, and I am in hospital for some time, we tell them another story, because even then, to be so angry with him, I do not know, he is my father and I do not want him in jail. And also, I think I will have to tell them what cause it, of my mother.
Anyway, my sister, she ask me,do you want to speak more of it now, and I say no. She say ok. But she say, it is nothing you done wrong, and when you want to talk more on it, please do. I tell her, there is two friends here I talk with some. She say that is good. We stop speak of it then.
It is some relief, that she do not think I am sick and dirty. The dirty, that is worse feeling, isn't it? It keeps me from someone I care very much of right now. It keeps me from something I would feel more happy with now. But that is all right, tonight I am happy that my sister is still my sister. It is nice to have some sanity in the family.
My translater is growing tired, I guess it is time for bed now. Thank you.
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My sister, she is 3 and half years older of me, she is visiting right now. We have had a very pleasant visit, I see her for few days few months ago, but she never have come here to visit before.
I wonder always, do she know of what our mother do? I know that she is quite distant from our father, and do not like him for how violent always he is with us. But I wonder if she know of our mother, what she do, and do she see it is wrong? She share room with me, until we both leave home, I know she most know of it happen. But never we talk of it.
I say something to her today, it is just off the hand comment, of something to do with something few years ago, a large fight of me and my father. And I ask her, Raisa, do you know what it was about? Because I can tell you. She say what is it. And I tell her what it is of, that he hate me because of my mother, say I am whore, something I do not want say here right now, but of something with her, and honest, I do think he try to kill me. And she look at me and say, well, I think that make more sense then what you tell everyone happen. Because of what happen, and there is police involved of it, and I am in hospital for some time, we tell them another story, because even then, to be so angry with him, I do not know, he is my father and I do not want him in jail. And also, I think I will have to tell them what cause it, of my mother.
Anyway, my sister, she ask me,do you want to speak more of it now, and I say no. She say ok. But she say, it is nothing you done wrong, and when you want to talk more on it, please do. I tell her, there is two friends here I talk with some. She say that is good. We stop speak of it then.
It is some relief, that she do not think I am sick and dirty. The dirty, that is worse feeling, isn't it? It keeps me from someone I care very much of right now. It keeps me from something I would feel more happy with now. But that is all right, tonight I am happy that my sister is still my sister. It is nice to have some sanity in the family.
My translater is growing tired, I guess it is time for bed now. Thank you.
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