My Life Now

[moo2]

My life has turned upside down since Januarary 27. I do not drive, so it depends On Mr Edd's moods on wheither I get some job applications. Usually no. We need someone to get a job very, very soon. But Mr Edd's healing has to come first. I am usually very accepting of Mr Edd's moods, but right now I am frustrated. Always asking for help moneywise is very embarrashing. We never had to go on welfare + we still do not want to. I even sometimes just want it to go back to how I was living before, but I do not believe in divorce. I truly took an oath before God + said for better or worse. Plus Edwin's life would not be getting him on the road to recovery. Edwin needs me now like he has never ever needed me before. I am so glad that I can vent here plus vent with my outside support system. THANK YOU!!! Let me tell you guys about my support system outside of here.
It is our whole church here. Most of the people just let me talk + get some of the shit out in the open, plus talking out loud helps me release some of the pressures of supporting a survivor. We also have an accountability group Biblicily based that Mr Edd is opening up + healing. We have 1 good friend whom is from our accountability class that meets 2x a week. Anyways I am so grateful that I have a lot of support because sometimes I need that much support because it is differant levels of support. Thank you for letting me ramble on with my thoughts running everywhich way.
WITH MUCH LOVE,
Kim

 

[Lloydy]

Thank you for your kind words Kim.

Dave

 

[Wuamei]

Kim,

My prayers are with you & Edwin for healing, for your finances, for your marriage, for everything.
I'm glad both of you have good support and accountability. And in your church yet! Wow. You know that is not all that common, at least not around here. I long to see all churches ministering in this way, as they should be. I won't rest till I do my part to help that happen. At least in my own little neck of the woods. Thanks for the inspiration from yours!

Victor

 

[SandyW]

We too have a lot of support from our church. In fact, our pastor is the first person to which my husband revealed his secret. Of course that secret is between the three of us now and won't go any further, but he sees the pastor weekly and at least that's someone to talk to and confide in where he is safe.

I'm glad both of you have good support and accountability. And in your church yet! Wow. You know that is not all that common, at least not around here.

Talk about accountability? We are part of a small group and the last time my husband went on a drinking binge, the guys went and found him (after 7 hours of searching the entire state), brought him back to one of their houses, and when he sobered up the next morning, gently held him accountable. Its a moving experience to be part of such a church community.

Sandy

 

[Freedom]

Thank you Kim. I also do not believe in divorce so it is good to see you model that. Best of luck to you and Edwin. Freedom.