My life *May be triggering to some*
Healing light
Registrant
This isn't the first time I have told my story but everytime I do i do it in the hope it's going to help me (and maybe even someone else) a step further forward in my journey
I don't remember a time before abuse my first memories are of it along with happy ones. My father was a terrible man. My mammy how she tried and still does to help us. I am my parents 6th child. One of my uncles had no family he worked for my father he had free run around the family home often having a caravan in the garden he choose me to groom age 3 he did some terrible things until when I was 11 he tried to penetrate me with his penis but stopped I think threw fear of physically hurting me so badly my mammy might notice or my sister. And I was so upset he had physically hurt me for the first time ever and I linked that to abuse Around the same time an older cousin had been paying attention to me he worked for my father and lived with my grandparents. Let's call him F I was in his car and I told him what our uncle had done he called him a dirty old perv and he would see that he never touched me again my uncle never did
F went on to inflict upon me 17 years of abuse, control and humiliation
He told me he loved me noone else cared when my father died my mammy had her hands full wit my poorly baby brother in and out the hospital and we were a hand full after the abuse our father had dished out F gained full control there
I was his boy
Until the last time he raped me age 28
He utterly broke me that night n day but within a year of that in a twist of fate it was him broken in court unable to face me as he made his plea
Here I am now 4 years after my disclosures still desperately trying to heal with a family around me trying to heal also. I have responsibilitys I'm a father myself. I have no self esteem and little self control and joining I'm hoping to find support and offer support
Your all brave
I don't remember a time before abuse my first memories are of it along with happy ones. My father was a terrible man. My mammy how she tried and still does to help us. I am my parents 6th child. One of my uncles had no family he worked for my father he had free run around the family home often having a caravan in the garden he choose me to groom age 3 he did some terrible things until when I was 11 he tried to penetrate me with his penis but stopped I think threw fear of physically hurting me so badly my mammy might notice or my sister. And I was so upset he had physically hurt me for the first time ever and I linked that to abuse Around the same time an older cousin had been paying attention to me he worked for my father and lived with my grandparents. Let's call him F I was in his car and I told him what our uncle had done he called him a dirty old perv and he would see that he never touched me again my uncle never did
F went on to inflict upon me 17 years of abuse, control and humiliation
He told me he loved me noone else cared when my father died my mammy had her hands full wit my poorly baby brother in and out the hospital and we were a hand full after the abuse our father had dished out F gained full control there
I was his boy
Until the last time he raped me age 28
He utterly broke me that night n day but within a year of that in a twist of fate it was him broken in court unable to face me as he made his plea
Here I am now 4 years after my disclosures still desperately trying to heal with a family around me trying to heal also. I have responsibilitys I'm a father myself. I have no self esteem and little self control and joining I'm hoping to find support and offer support
Your all brave
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