My life being raped and sexually abused.

[Michael196555]

It’s too difficult to tell my story right now.

 

[victor-victim]

i can only tell you how sorry i am to hear your story.
i wish there was more that i could do.
it hurts to hear what happened to you.
my sincerest wish is for you to recover and be happy again.
hopefully, ms.org will be part of that process.
if there is anything you want to share, please do.
if you want to stay quiet and take full advantage of the half million posts from other survivors, including almost 16 thousand in the POETRY FORUM alone, you are under no pressure to contribute.

be real and reality will materialize.
be true and truth will open your eyes.
be honest and your heart and mind will synchronize.
be yourself and you start to find yourself in disguise!

i see me in almost every post here.

i can't tell you how much this website has helped me.
may it help you too!

welcome, brother survivor.
[img:left]https://st.depositphotos.com/1177025/1854/v/110/depositphotos_18545837--redo.jpg[/img]
read, receive, reflect, respond, reconnect,
remember, revisit, review, revise, revive,
renew, release, recover, rejuvenate, rejoice.

 

[woodenshoes]

Micheal196555

You have endured a lot. I'm sorry your hurting. Great resources here. I hope you find the healing to move forward.

Ws

 

[Michael196555]

I can hardly stand the pain and loss of innocents at what happened. Thanks for

the kind words.

Michael

 

[Nothing Man]

Welcome my friend. You have taken a brave first step by introducing yourself and telling a little of your story. I am terribly sorry for what you went through. It was not fair, it was not your fault, you did not ask for it, yet people chose to hurt you.

I'm really glad you are in intensive therapy. Talking about these terrible things can be hard but it also helps; the more we talk about them, the less power they hold over us.

Stay strong. It will get better.

Mike

 

[Michael196555]

Thanks again Mike!! Your words and kindness help me a lot. I just hope I can make it. Michael1965 told me today that Trazadone takes away the nightmares. I'm going to talk to my psych doctor soon about getting some. I just need to sleep.

Michael196555

 

[Nothing Man]

You will make it!

I take Trazodone also and it certainly helps. I also take another fistful of anti-depressants and they do take the edge off.

I am proud of the way you are seeking help for yourself. Keep it up -- you are stronger than you realize.

Mike

 

[kcinohio]

Hope you find healing here at MS and in your therapy. Thank you for your introduction. Sorry for the pain you've endured through the abuse.

 

[smc1972]

Thanks for telling yor story it makes me know I am not alone in all these feelings I am having. I have been afraid to have posted here and I did this week and has been good for me just to share a little.

I was not raped so I can't relate to that and I am sorry u had to endure that. My past was from my parents growing up. I have guessed avoided dealing with it most my life. I have batteled depression on and off for a very long time and recently it has gotten worse. At least here I know I am not alone. However I still have never told anyone about this in Person not even when I was seeing a counselor.

I hope you are able to find some help here

 

[Michael196555]

Thank you smc1972 for letting me know that I'm not alone either. I hope you get the therapy you need. One thing I know about therapy is that you have to open up and be honest with your therapist and if he/she doesn't respond well to your situation get another therapist until you find one that is as good as you need them to be.

I'm so sorry that you have had to endure abuse from your parents as I have had physical and mental abuse from my father and sexual abuse from my older sister. The rest of my abuses were from being raped I think because I was gay and unable to stand up for myself. I'm getting pretty good at setting my boundaries now.

It was a great day when my therapist told me about MS.org. It has opened my eyes to all the other victims out there dealing with the same or similar issues I am. If theres anything I can do to help you please just ask me.

Regards,
Michael

 

[Michael196555]

Victor-victim, I can only say that it touches my heart to hear you say the kind words that you have said.

I had another therapy session today and it went very well. My therapist says I'm making great progress. I am honest and truthful about what happened to me and it shows in the progress that I'm making. I someday will confront that girl with an honest letter telling her I know what she did and even if she throws it in the garbage I've put her on notice that I know she is a perp. If nothing else it will make me feel great. The other perps I have no idea where they are and it doesn't matter at this point. I will find happiness in spite of them.

I'm sorry that you can see yourself in almost every post because you must be hurting from your past abuse. I wish there was something I could do to help you too.

MS has made a huge impact in my recovery thanks to all of you guys and my therapist for giving me the MS.org website.

Thanks brother in surviving.
Michael

 

[Michael196555]

Victor-victim, I can't tell how nice it is to hear the kind words you have spoken to me. I feel warmth and love in your message and its nice to know you care. I will continue to share what happened to me if it helps me and maybe others too.

I am honest and truthful about what happened to me as it shows in my therapy. My therapist told me today that I am making great progress by acknowledging what happened head on even though I can't sleep much and its painful. I will someday once I reach the end of my therapy write a letter to that girl to put her on notice that she is a perp. Even if she throws it in the garbage that will be fine as long as I get it out I will feel great.

I'm sorry that you see yourself in almost every post because you must be hurting and that makes me sad for you.

MS.org has had a huge impact on my recovery. I thank all of the guys here that have helped me including my therapist for giving me the MS.org website.

Thank you dearly my brother survivor,
Michael