My inner boy is mad ..

[anonDK]

I'm really not sure what to think of this. But since I got triggered lately, abuse memories have surfaced once again. What I sometimes do is that I imagine myself comforting the boy inside (I literally hug a pillow, imagining it to be him). And when I do so, I sort of 'feel' him. He seems pretty mad, not sure at who. But he just don't like it there and he just wants to go home.

I checked myself in the mirror and yes, I look like I'm sulking alright.

The place where abuse took place was in a feminist nude camp I was at with my mom when I was 4 years old. It seems like not only the abuse was traumatic, but just being there was horrible to me. I hated it there.

I'm unsure what to think of all this. Does this sound all crazy to you?

 

[LoneWolfX]

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[anonDK]

Thank you for your response, that was most helpful

I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks putting a boy in a nudist camp at the age of 4 is completely inappropriate! That's really the feeling I get, that I hate being there, I want to go home and I want clothes on!

I am scared too sometimes, of approaching him. Sometimes it seems it increases my anxiety and stress whenever I try to approach him. At other times, I really get to 'feel' him and his anger

 

[LoneWolfX]

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