My childhood and domestic abuse story.
***Trigger Warning***
Names have been changed
First off, I'm writing about my experiences just to vent about my situation and in the hope that it will prevent somebody getting into the same situation as mine and to keep a record of what's going on in case I need it in the future. I've been to Law Enforcement and not gotten much help from them, so i'm not holding out much hope that they'll ever be able to help me, but somebody recommended to me to keep a record of what's going on.
My story began when I was 14 and I met my future girlfriend. I'm now 20 years old. She was 30 at the time. I know, a massive age gap, but I was a 14 year old kid and here was this woman of the world, interested in me! A 14 year old boy, with no sexual experience at all. She was super-hot and still is. I've since found out that there was a reason she was interested in me. From the people I've spoken to (on the internet, so not experts), they say she groomed me.
When we first met it was at my school wrestling match, her 14 year old son was actually my opponent and afterwards she approached me and told me I played well (even though I lost to her son). She also commented on how good I looked in my wrestling uniform and even asked to squeeze my bicep(!) It felt good to receive attention from a good looking woman. She asked me if I wanted to go back to their's for dinner. We all got on pretty well, she was funny and seemed very alluring and I got on well with Ben, her son. We had a few things in common, one was that our fathers had died a few years earlier. I lived with my mother, who was an alcoholic (unfortunately she is no longer with us). So I think saw Jenny as a kind of surrogate mom at first.
It wasn't long before she started asking me to come out with her, just the two of us. She would take me to fancy restaurants andI felt so grown up. One night she even asked me back to her place for a night cap. I think I had a beer or two (i'd never even drunk alcohol before, so I ended up a bit drunk), she got through a bottle of wine. After we'd finished our drinks she asked if i wanted to go up and see her son's wrestling trophies (he was at his grandma's I think). I agreed and I ended up having to sit on his bed as I felt a bit tipsy. I think she sat down beside me and started rubbing my back because I felt like I was going to be sick. After the sickness passed she carried on rubbing my back and I think she slowly started moving her hand downwards, I don't quite remember. She somehow managed to get her hand round to my front and mentioned how hard my abs were for a 14 year old. I felt pretty flattered and proud of myself as I'd really been working out hard all season. She must've found some reason to brush against my shorts and commented on how my dick was also pretty hard. Looking back I think she'd planned this all along as it seemed to happen too slick for it to be spontaneous. I must've grinned like an idiot because she just laughed and carried on rubbing my groin area. I must've been pretty hard by then because she made some stupid remark about me pitching a tent and then laughed,saying I'd gone all red, which made me go even redder. She just kept rubbing, with me sitting there like a fool until after a short while I came (I was only 14 after all). I remember getting pissed off because she said I'd made a mess and gave me a pair of her son's dirty shorts from his pile of washing to wear home to ride on my bike in and said she'd wash my other ones and I'd have to come back for them another day. So that gave her a reason for me to have to go back. I tried to just ignore her texts and planned to write the shorts off as a loss, but she kept saying her son wanted his back, so i had to go back to her's after school. Her son was in the basement playing on his X-box or something. I tried to go down there to join him but she said let's have a drink again, so I think she got me out a beer and got her self a glass of some wine or other. I drank my beer pretty quickly (even though it tasted horrible) just so I could leave. But she convinced me to have another one by saying something like "have one for the road", even though I was riding home on my bike. I drank that one pretty quickly too in order to get out of there, so when I stood up I felt all light headed. I'd like to say she spiked it with something, but I think my alcohol tolerance was that low. I knew what would be coming next. She'd make up some bullshit excuse to touch me again and eventually made me come in m shorts.
The same thing happened again and she said she'd wash my shorts and let me borrow a pair of her son's to ride home in. So then I obviously had to go back to retrieve my clean ones and return her son's.
Fast forward a few years and Im now 19 and living with her and her son, so I'm his kind of "step-dad", even though I'm his same age.
My dilemma is that I realise I was groomed, however firstly if I go to the aurhorities they will say why did you keep going back and I'm ashamed to say I liked it. It felt naughtly and exciting and I'd never had a sexual experience before. Now we are in a full secual relationship and we get on great. If I go to the authorities I will lose the woman I love, my friend will lose his mom and I will be humiliated.
However I'm worried that as I begin to no longer look like the 14 year old she got on with then she will move onto some other unsuspecting kid and then dump me. She already makes me shae my chest so that I look younger and "jokingly" says she prefers me when I was younger. So I want to spare somebody else what I went through. So do I have a duty to prevent this from happening to another 14 year old (she has a 12 year old son, so has an easy way to get into situations where she can talk to other young kids). Thanksfully hes's not a wrestler, he plays soccer. But still, I wouldn't put it past her. Or do I have a duty to keep a family together and maybe watch her like a hawk and prevent any recurrence?
Some of the memories are hazy and I've reconstructed them as best I can.
Names have been changed
First off, I'm writing about my experiences just to vent about my situation and in the hope that it will prevent somebody getting into the same situation as mine and to keep a record of what's going on in case I need it in the future. I've been to Law Enforcement and not gotten much help from them, so i'm not holding out much hope that they'll ever be able to help me, but somebody recommended to me to keep a record of what's going on.
My story began when I was 14 and I met my future girlfriend. I'm now 20 years old. She was 30 at the time. I know, a massive age gap, but I was a 14 year old kid and here was this woman of the world, interested in me! A 14 year old boy, with no sexual experience at all. She was super-hot and still is. I've since found out that there was a reason she was interested in me. From the people I've spoken to (on the internet, so not experts), they say she groomed me.
When we first met it was at my school wrestling match, her 14 year old son was actually my opponent and afterwards she approached me and told me I played well (even though I lost to her son). She also commented on how good I looked in my wrestling uniform and even asked to squeeze my bicep(!) It felt good to receive attention from a good looking woman. She asked me if I wanted to go back to their's for dinner. We all got on pretty well, she was funny and seemed very alluring and I got on well with Ben, her son. We had a few things in common, one was that our fathers had died a few years earlier. I lived with my mother, who was an alcoholic (unfortunately she is no longer with us). So I think saw Jenny as a kind of surrogate mom at first.
It wasn't long before she started asking me to come out with her, just the two of us. She would take me to fancy restaurants andI felt so grown up. One night she even asked me back to her place for a night cap. I think I had a beer or two (i'd never even drunk alcohol before, so I ended up a bit drunk), she got through a bottle of wine. After we'd finished our drinks she asked if i wanted to go up and see her son's wrestling trophies (he was at his grandma's I think). I agreed and I ended up having to sit on his bed as I felt a bit tipsy. I think she sat down beside me and started rubbing my back because I felt like I was going to be sick. After the sickness passed she carried on rubbing my back and I think she slowly started moving her hand downwards, I don't quite remember. She somehow managed to get her hand round to my front and mentioned how hard my abs were for a 14 year old. I felt pretty flattered and proud of myself as I'd really been working out hard all season. She must've found some reason to brush against my shorts and commented on how my dick was also pretty hard. Looking back I think she'd planned this all along as it seemed to happen too slick for it to be spontaneous. I must've grinned like an idiot because she just laughed and carried on rubbing my groin area. I must've been pretty hard by then because she made some stupid remark about me pitching a tent and then laughed,saying I'd gone all red, which made me go even redder. She just kept rubbing, with me sitting there like a fool until after a short while I came (I was only 14 after all). I remember getting pissed off because she said I'd made a mess and gave me a pair of her son's dirty shorts from his pile of washing to wear home to ride on my bike in and said she'd wash my other ones and I'd have to come back for them another day. So that gave her a reason for me to have to go back. I tried to just ignore her texts and planned to write the shorts off as a loss, but she kept saying her son wanted his back, so i had to go back to her's after school. Her son was in the basement playing on his X-box or something. I tried to go down there to join him but she said let's have a drink again, so I think she got me out a beer and got her self a glass of some wine or other. I drank my beer pretty quickly (even though it tasted horrible) just so I could leave. But she convinced me to have another one by saying something like "have one for the road", even though I was riding home on my bike. I drank that one pretty quickly too in order to get out of there, so when I stood up I felt all light headed. I'd like to say she spiked it with something, but I think my alcohol tolerance was that low. I knew what would be coming next. She'd make up some bullshit excuse to touch me again and eventually made me come in m shorts.
The same thing happened again and she said she'd wash my shorts and let me borrow a pair of her son's to ride home in. So then I obviously had to go back to retrieve my clean ones and return her son's.
Fast forward a few years and Im now 19 and living with her and her son, so I'm his kind of "step-dad", even though I'm his same age.
My dilemma is that I realise I was groomed, however firstly if I go to the aurhorities they will say why did you keep going back and I'm ashamed to say I liked it. It felt naughtly and exciting and I'd never had a sexual experience before. Now we are in a full secual relationship and we get on great. If I go to the authorities I will lose the woman I love, my friend will lose his mom and I will be humiliated.
However I'm worried that as I begin to no longer look like the 14 year old she got on with then she will move onto some other unsuspecting kid and then dump me. She already makes me shae my chest so that I look younger and "jokingly" says she prefers me when I was younger. So I want to spare somebody else what I went through. So do I have a duty to prevent this from happening to another 14 year old (she has a 12 year old son, so has an easy way to get into situations where she can talk to other young kids). Thanksfully hes's not a wrestler, he plays soccer. But still, I wouldn't put it past her. Or do I have a duty to keep a family together and maybe watch her like a hawk and prevent any recurrence?
Some of the memories are hazy and I've reconstructed them as best I can.
