my attacker is sent back to prison :)

[Tyr]

for real this time. probation order processed confirmed and revoked. he is in a maximum security prison. i saw his pics in the prison. it triggered me, not going to lie. i feel relieved for myself and all but i still ironically feel small and like a coward inside.

bcause if i had gotten a rape kit in the first place... but i know where that line of thought goes.

of course the whistleblower retaliation from coming forward about this rape was like nothing that one could describe.\

i want to curl up and i know that is irrational. instead i ate healthy and did pushups and working out. i really need someone to talk to. i... just want to cry and i havent cried about this in over 2 years.
seriously if anyone can pm me i realllly need to speak

 

[newground]

I cant pm you man but I am glad you have shared here and that you took good care of yourself you deserve that. I hope that the urge to curl up fades soon too
be well
jeff

 

[Tyr]

ive never ignored you newground but my acct is saying youre on ignore but when i try and un ignore that wont work saying I cant ignore a moderator. very ODD

 

[newground]

that is odd. I will message the team and see what is happening. mean while I hope that you are still taking care of yourself. these strong sudden changes are really hard to manage even if they are for the good.
be well
Jeff

 

[Tyr]

i havent heard from an admin or mod about this tech issue yet. any word. and any other feedback from any other members about this post/thread?

 

[newground]

Im still around man I havent heard anything back yet either but I expect to soon hope you are staying strong
Jeff

 

[weharry1959]

Dear Tyr,
I haven't gone on here in a while. But when I read your statement, it moved me and I wanted to reach out. Hence, the reason for this posting.
I am hoping that you are doing better than when you first posted this. Your remarks sounded eerily familiar. I hope that if you get this you are able to connect with me. I do not know if you can leave tel number or not, but I am willing to share.
To let you know about me, I am 54, I am married, I have two adult children. I use to work as a community based dually diagnosed Sex Offender Specialist. Not a job that I relished because it kicked up my past as a child being molested and as an adult when I was raped. I've had good counseling and a wonderful family to help me seek out healthy choices in my life. If you find that you'd like to contact me, please be assured that I as willing to help. I will say that there appears to be great therapists here, but if you haven't found one you are comfortable with, either here or where you are located at, I stand ready to be there for you. Warm and sincerest regards, Bill

 

[ThisMan]

Tyr. I haven't been here for a while either. Hope you are staying strong and doing better. Don't let the feelings inside take hold. You are not a coward. Not at all. I don't know you full story, but I do know the pain that comes and goes from having experienced the ASA. Try to remember the strength that has gotten you this far. We are with you.

b

 

[Tyr]

thank you both of you